Time to go public with this poem

It's not supposed to be this way,
I'm not meant to be here today,
But I am standing right here,
Without you.

I dream of your face,
I think about you all the time,
I feel you everwhere I go,
I hear you laughing in the rain.

I just want to give you one more hug,
Tell you it's going to be okay,
Hear your musical laugh again,
See your smile brighten my day.

All you've left behind now,
Are albums of pictures,
And our hand prints on the wall,
Your hands so much smaller than mine.

I loved you before I met you,
I remember I thought you looked like an angel,
I had you memorized better than anyone else,
I'd wish you good night before you fell asleep.

I'll always call you my son,
I can see you in Heaven, my little one.

Written 8/16/2013.