Sad songs & depression again

So I drive and I think about my life
And wonder why that I slowly die inside
Every time I turn that truck around
Right at the Georgia line 
And I count the days
And the miles back home to you 
On that Highway 20 ride
Highway 20 ride-Zac Brown Band

I had a brilliant idea that I've been slowly working on.
It comes as a result of hurt, betrayal, sadness, anger, tiredness, and depression.
No, no good feelings that gave me such a brilliant idea.
It's not suicide, no, if that's what you were thinking.

I was thinking of building a house in New Jersey.

Why New Jersey? Because the weather there is awesome and it's not that far away from civilization.

And I'm going to live there alone as in with no other human being.

Why alone?

Because I'm sick of people.

There's very few people in my life right now whom I'm not sick of.

I'm considering keeping two German Shepherds with me.

After all, I can't

a)fall in love with the dogs (yes, that was meant to make you laugh)

b)become upset by something they say

c)play monopoly with them and have them cheat continuously

d)I'm tired of listing everything here

e)Maroon Five are awesome

Like an aeroplane
I took flight
Fell in love with you that first night 
Cause you danced with me 
And I could see that there was more to life 
I'm falling 
I'm falling 
In love with you 
I'm falling 
I'm falling 
In love with you-ooh
Tyler Ward-Falling

I wish my life was this song.
'Cause songs, they never die.
I could write for years and years
and never have to cry.
I'd show you how I feel without saying a word.
I could wrap up both our hearts.
I know it sounds absurd.

The last song ever-A walk to remember

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Jesse Mccartney-Because you live

oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart
John Mayer-Half of my heart

it only hurts when
your eyes are open
lies get tossed
and truth is spoken
it only hurts
when that door gets open
dreams are lost
and hearts are broken
Default-It only hurts

Justin Bieber can sing

I've realized that there is hope for humanity after all. I know three amazing writers-Ezazi, Areesha, and a students at school, whose name is Faisal and is writing an amazing story which he allowed me to read.
And Justin Bieber sounds better now that he's older. Doesn't sound like a girl anymore.

This Romeo's bleeding
You can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

I made a list of my favorite memories. Maybe I missed out a few.
Being awarded my first-ever first position certificate in front of the entire school and walking all the way up the line to collect it. And later comparing grades to find out that I had beat the smartest girl in school.

Talking to Deaf children in sign language, and trying to work out what they were saying in every sentence, only to find out that they were calling me big and fat.

Meeting the new girl in school all of a sudden. I had only seen her once before that since she was a distant relative. I was the new Head Boy at Bay View and my team of Prefects were checking students' uniforms at the end of assembly. And since she was new, she didn't know what all the policies were. So she was called out of line for wearing the wrong color of shoes-yes, my school has a policy about that-and brought to me. And all I could say was 'hi' and 'you're (her name comes here), right?' That's when I first encountered breathlessness. And yes, that was The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Sitting on the white bench, watching the new girl in school tryout for the Junior Basketball Team. And admiring her for it. I never could play Basketball. Until a few months ago, I couldn't play. Waiting till all my friends had left, just to watch her play. And finding out later that a friend had told her that I had a crush on her, only to find out that the feeling was mutual. And yes, that was The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Sitting with her at the iftar party, away from my friends and her friends, just getting to know her. Having her as my centre of attention. People staring at me cause no girl had ever interested me through ten years of school. Just talking to her and enjoying it. And yes, that was The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Getting my admissions letter to Lyceum and taking it to my cousin's house to read it in full. Being excited, and texting my friends to tell them the news. Texting and studying for my O'levels and listening to the radio. Ah, those were the times.

My first day at Lyceum. Finding my timetable amidst the chaos, meeting old friends and making new ones. Realizing that the seniors weren't allowed to rag us but still being given hell from most of them. Reading an article in a newsletter that made fun of the newbies and walking up to six seniors and taking them all on in a dissing war.

Playing with my puppies. Feeding them. Having them run after me. Oh, how I miss them, so I'm not going to elaborate on that memory.

Playing fouzeball with a group of friends and being one of the best at the game. Taking people on with one hand behind my back and still managing to win. Playing with my future best friend and winning everyone's challenges.

Coming back to Pakistan at 4am in the morning and surprising everyone by texting them. The sudden heat, the people staring at us, and the mosquitoes haunting us. Waiting for my cousin to pick us up and the curious stares everyone kept giving us.

Staying up all night and chatting with Ezazi & Areesha and listening to music and singing Aqua's Barbie Girl and Axel's Crazy frog so loudly I woke my brother and he came and checked if I was feeling alright.

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

7 am-waves of insanity

The Canon T4i is out, as of today. I'm not even mentioning the price here, since I'm saving up for the T3i. :)

If I had a pound for every time I've thought or dreamt of you, I'd be a millionare.

Anyway.
I stayed up all night. Watched the soccer matches. Prayed. Hoped Germany would lose somehow, but it was not meant to be.
And after Fajr, it was back to YouTube :P

Right now I'm playing Waderai Ka Beta and trying not to sing along :P

No one gets tired of loving. You just get tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies, apologies, and hurting.

I knew I loved you before I met you

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

A guy is sitting at a bar in a skyscraper restaurant high above the city. He's slamming tequila left and right. he grabs one, drinks it, goes over to a window and jumps out. The guy who was sitting next to him couldn't believe that the guy had just done that. He was more surprised when, ten minutes later, the same guy, unscathed, comes walking back into the bar and sits back down next to him. The astonished guy asks," How did you do that???? I just saw you jump out that window and we're hundreds of feet above the ground!!!" The jumper responds by slurring, "Well, I don't get it either. I slam a shot of tequila and when I jump out the window, the tequila makes me slow down right before I hit the ground. Watch." He takes a shot, slams it down, goes tot the window and jumps out. The other guy runs to the window and watches as the guy falls until right before the ground, slows down and lands softly on his feet. A few minutes later, the guy walks back into the bar. The other guy has to try it too, so he orders a shot of tequila. he drinks it and goes to the window and jumps. As he reaches the bottom, he doesn't slow down at all....SPLAT!!!!!! The first guy orders another shot of tequila and the bartender says to him," You're really an asshole when you're drunk, Superman."

It's amazing how you speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark

Try as I may I could never explain

What I hear when you don't say a thing

My first paragraph reminds me, 'American Standard' is usually the way to be.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

I'm enjoying the holidays. I have guests staying over at my place who're from my family's ancestral home, Larkana, and relatives  from America, so it's a pretty diverse atmosphere. Music and new technology mixing with prayers and chaos.

I've never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight,
I've never seen you shine so bright, you were amazing,
I've never seen so many people want to be there by your side,
And when you turned to me and smiled, it took my breath away,
And I have never had such a feeling,
Such a feeling of complete and utter love, as I do tonight.

Oh, and does anyone else have an Acer laptop that's been giving them trouble with overheating? Cause this is the second Acer laptop I've bought and both have the exact same problem, it's turning into a family joke, that the first problem with the laptop is that it's an Acer. Imma buy Asus next, anyone have one of those?

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along

I got into another university Alhamdullilah, this time the University of Texas at Dallas. So now I can choose between the East Coast, the West Coast, and the South.

The biggest mistake you'll make is walking away from the person that stood there and waited for you.

Pieces of Heaven

Look what I did!

Yes, I shaved off my hair-by self, no less, since I have the shaving machine.

If you felt like laughing, go ahead. These people certainly did.

Heads up. I feel like singing.

Socha Kya Kabhi Tou Ne Ye

Aye Tum Kahan Say Ho

Jao Gay Kahan Ye Socha

Naheen Ray Naheen

And I found it there in your heart 

It isn't too hard to see 

We're in heaven 

Who will turn your world around 

Bring you up when you're feelin' down 

And love is all that I need 

Oh - once in your life you find someone

Bring you up when you're feelin' down

I have over 150 followers!!!

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs

God gave me you for the days of doubt

And for when I think I lost my way

There are no words here left to say, it's true

God gave me you

Gave me you

I went to one of the new malls the other day and there was a group of my ninth grade students, all of them high on Red Bull.

Now while I'm eating Cinnamonn rolls at Cinnabonn, they proceed to yell hi to me from a mile away and then walk towards me, all the while singing and 'walking like a beanie,' as they put it.

Yes, this post was meant to make people smile.

I have been searching for your touch

Unlike any touch I've ever known

And I never thought about you much

Til I'm broken down and all alone, ohhh

Though I don't understand the meaning of love

I do not mind if I die trying, ohhh

Took it for granted when you lifted me up

Oh, and I have holidays. I started them off by staying up till Fajr for two days in a row (which is a massive achievement considering the horrible migraines I can get as a result of simply changing my sleeping pattern) and only got the usual migraines.


Oh, oh, I was singing so much while staying up and chatting that my brother actually came to check my temperature to see why I was soo happy.


Beauty queen of only eighteen,
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else


I drove for miles and miles
and wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more


I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pourin rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay a while
And she will be loved
She will be loved



If I have ten cubes and you have eleven apples, how many pancakes can fit on the roof Purple. Because aliens don't wear hats.