Alhamdullilah!

*this is a happy post, scout's honor*

So I woke up yesterday and today with a migraine.

And I was just like.. no.
I had a presentation yesterday morning-a really important one, because I was presenting my proposal for my team's topic for our research project.
Oh, and I was presenting to my engineering class.

Which is kind of intimidating since everyone in that class is older than me and everyone probably knows a lot more technical stuff that I do.

I was the first to be presenting, too. Kind of a funny story how I got to present first. My teacher asked us how we wanted to present, and I raised my hand and volunteered-which shocked everyone, because engineers aren't usually very social and comfortable with presenting-and my professor said okay, but asked how we still wanted to do it.
And I couldn't resist; I raised my hand again and asked if this was the point where we all wrote down our names and she picked them one by one just like in the hunger games and I volunteered. Which made everyone laugh, but that's what we ended up doing.

So I had breakfast & medicine and got there on time and everything.
My proposal was how and why internet slows down when there are lots of people connected to the Wi-Fi.
And while presenting-something that I always do, even though it's considered playing with fire-I made a joke to get everyone's attention, make it memorable, and my jokes are almost always stuff that actually happened. And the joke was.. My choosing the topic came about while I was sitting at the UTD library and researching quantum computers, and this individual-professional language, right?-sat near me and started playing Call of Duty online on his laptop, and I could hear the sounds through his speakers & knew what was going on. My internet slowed down because he was taking up so much of it, so I started downloading a movie so his internet would slow down too. (Oh, and this actually happened. I may be super nice, but never mess with me. Find somewhere else to play Call of Duty online.)

Everyone loved my presentation, and that's how the awesomeness started. *wide smile*

I've been doing nothing but studying and working till my test today-and my test went great, Alhamdullilah, I understood almost everything since I studied with some new friends I've been making these two weeks.

Oh, and when I came out of my test auditorium at 8:30, I had three missed calls from my mom, a bunch of texts, and a voice mail, asking where I was, if I was okay, and to call her as soon as I got her voice mail. Turns out, she had thought my test ended at 7 instead of 8:30. Parents are awesome-not making fun of anyone, they really are awesome, I know lots of parents who don't care about their kids. So I am really blessed, Alhamdullilah.

I've been praying ten times as much as I used to-while I'm walking around, while driving-and the feeling of.. joy.. that I already have? It's like you work harder than you used to and you see the results much faster.
So, Alhamdullilah.

By the wayy. You know how guys love their cars? I'm thinking of buying new rims for mine-yes, it's a Honda Civic 2001, not a sports car-but I love my car; I'd rather have the car I drive now than a Camaro or a Mercedes, Audi, or even a Lamborghini Gallardo-which are some of my favorite cars in the world.

Cause if you let me, here's what I'll do
I'll take care of you

Don't believe in Hogwarts? You're a Muggle then.

What you want is some boombastic romantic fantastic lover
Shaggy
Mr.Lover lover, Mr. Lover lover, girl Mr. Lover lover
She call me Mr. Boombastic say me fantastic touch me in the back
she say I'm Mr. Ro...mantic
She call me Mr. Boombastic say me fantastic, touch me me back she say I'm ro....

Time heals everything. And when you say that life can't get any better, it does get better.

The parrot part made me and my mom laugh out so loud for a full five minutes.

Once upon a time
I went to the library
And I love that old library
I would have lived there if I could
Is that a lyric
yup
And I sang in the library when the librarian said to hush
So I got up and started dancing on the tables instead
And I was joined by the cute little librarian
And we danced the day away
Oh, we danced the day away
And when the library was closing, I asked her to come with me to the club
Oh librarian you can be my melody come shawty to the club with me
this is fun, baby girl I think it's your turn
let your hair loose and just dance with me, baby
come girl let's just fulfill your fantasy
I'm the guy you need
I'm also a huge freak
But I know you gonna love me
So shawty come and dance with me
I can make you feel like you're the only girl in the world
I'll always keep your hair curled
I'll hold your hair up if you're ever hurled
I'll tickle you to make ya laugh
And I'll dog-pile you for revenge
I'll dream of you every night
In the darkness, I'll be your light
In the morning I'll be your sunshine
At night, I'll be your moonlight
So baby come and dance with me
WIth me, you can be free
Free to rock your body baby
So come on and dance with me


Areesha and I wrote this song, texting each other one lyric and the other person texted the other. And we wrote it between 2am and 5am so we named it the Midnight Morning Song.
Our next song together will be even more random.
Oh, and we're hoping to get Chris Daughtry to sing it featuring T-Pain.

Yeah I, will love you, baby 
Always and i'll be there 
Forever and a day, always 


I'll be there, till the stars don't shine 
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme 
I know when i die you'll be on my mind 
and I'll love you, always 

Show you off, tonight I wanna show you off
What you got, a billion could’ve never bought
We gonna party like it’s 3012 tonight
I wanna show you all the finer things in life
So just forget about the world, be young tonight
I’m coming for ya, i’m coming for ya

Cause all I need is a beauty and a beat
Who can make my life complete
It’s all by you, when the music makes you move

Baby do it like you do

Justin Bieber can sing

I've realized that there is hope for humanity after all. I know three amazing writers-Ezazi, Areesha, and a students at school, whose name is Faisal and is writing an amazing story which he allowed me to read.
And Justin Bieber sounds better now that he's older. Doesn't sound like a girl anymore.

This Romeo's bleeding
You can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

I made a list of my favorite memories. Maybe I missed out a few.
Being awarded my first-ever first position certificate in front of the entire school and walking all the way up the line to collect it. And later comparing grades to find out that I had beat the smartest girl in school.

Talking to Deaf children in sign language, and trying to work out what they were saying in every sentence, only to find out that they were calling me big and fat.

Meeting the new girl in school all of a sudden. I had only seen her once before that since she was a distant relative. I was the new Head Boy at Bay View and my team of Prefects were checking students' uniforms at the end of assembly. And since she was new, she didn't know what all the policies were. So she was called out of line for wearing the wrong color of shoes-yes, my school has a policy about that-and brought to me. And all I could say was 'hi' and 'you're (her name comes here), right?' That's when I first encountered breathlessness. And yes, that was The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Sitting on the white bench, watching the new girl in school tryout for the Junior Basketball Team. And admiring her for it. I never could play Basketball. Until a few months ago, I couldn't play. Waiting till all my friends had left, just to watch her play. And finding out later that a friend had told her that I had a crush on her, only to find out that the feeling was mutual. And yes, that was The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Sitting with her at the iftar party, away from my friends and her friends, just getting to know her. Having her as my centre of attention. People staring at me cause no girl had ever interested me through ten years of school. Just talking to her and enjoying it. And yes, that was The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Getting my admissions letter to Lyceum and taking it to my cousin's house to read it in full. Being excited, and texting my friends to tell them the news. Texting and studying for my O'levels and listening to the radio. Ah, those were the times.

My first day at Lyceum. Finding my timetable amidst the chaos, meeting old friends and making new ones. Realizing that the seniors weren't allowed to rag us but still being given hell from most of them. Reading an article in a newsletter that made fun of the newbies and walking up to six seniors and taking them all on in a dissing war.

Playing with my puppies. Feeding them. Having them run after me. Oh, how I miss them, so I'm not going to elaborate on that memory.

Playing fouzeball with a group of friends and being one of the best at the game. Taking people on with one hand behind my back and still managing to win. Playing with my future best friend and winning everyone's challenges.

Coming back to Pakistan at 4am in the morning and surprising everyone by texting them. The sudden heat, the people staring at us, and the mosquitoes haunting us. Waiting for my cousin to pick us up and the curious stares everyone kept giving us.

Staying up all night and chatting with Ezazi & Areesha and listening to music and singing Aqua's Barbie Girl and Axel's Crazy frog so loudly I woke my brother and he came and checked if I was feeling alright.

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

Pieces of Heaven

Look what I did!

Yes, I shaved off my hair-by self, no less, since I have the shaving machine.

If you felt like laughing, go ahead. These people certainly did.

Heads up. I feel like singing.

Socha Kya Kabhi Tou Ne Ye

Aye Tum Kahan Say Ho

Jao Gay Kahan Ye Socha

Naheen Ray Naheen

And I found it there in your heart 

It isn't too hard to see 

We're in heaven 

Who will turn your world around 

Bring you up when you're feelin' down 

And love is all that I need 

Oh - once in your life you find someone

Bring you up when you're feelin' down

I have over 150 followers!!!

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs

God gave me you for the days of doubt

And for when I think I lost my way

There are no words here left to say, it's true

God gave me you

Gave me you

I went to one of the new malls the other day and there was a group of my ninth grade students, all of them high on Red Bull.

Now while I'm eating Cinnamonn rolls at Cinnabonn, they proceed to yell hi to me from a mile away and then walk towards me, all the while singing and 'walking like a beanie,' as they put it.

Yes, this post was meant to make people smile.

I have been searching for your touch

Unlike any touch I've ever known

And I never thought about you much

Til I'm broken down and all alone, ohhh

Though I don't understand the meaning of love

I do not mind if I die trying, ohhh

Took it for granted when you lifted me up

Oh, and I have holidays. I started them off by staying up till Fajr for two days in a row (which is a massive achievement considering the horrible migraines I can get as a result of simply changing my sleeping pattern) and only got the usual migraines.


Oh, oh, I was singing so much while staying up and chatting that my brother actually came to check my temperature to see why I was soo happy.


Beauty queen of only eighteen,
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else


I drove for miles and miles
and wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more


I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pourin rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay a while
And she will be loved
She will be loved



If I have ten cubes and you have eleven apples, how many pancakes can fit on the roof Purple. Because aliens don't wear hats.

Heart is a mess.

This shall be a happy post.

You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end.

Listening to Gotye in the morning with the laptop's volume on full?
And singing along?
Amazing.

Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mindAs you do mine


I taught grades two and three this week. I usually teach from grades four to eleven, so it was an amazing change.
Such cute students too. I didn't have to raise my voice a single time. Loved it.

I love this poem that I wrote.
'Wows of the Future'


They stand facing the wind,
Everyone watches them.
They stand together,
Neither complete without the other.

The tall twenty-five year old whispers something into her ear,
She laughs and pulls his arms around her.
They stand in the second-floor balcony,
They watch the sunset together.

The girl is a doctor,
She works ardently at her hospital,
She changes someone's life everyday,
She will be a good mother.

The boy is an engineer and a pillar of society,
He works to change and improve life,
He helps keep the neighborhood safe,
He will be a good father.

Their love gives everyone else hope for the future,
The two hard workers help the society.
Everyone watches them with pride,
They let no one stare with envy.

The girl leans against him,
He smiles as she relaxes.
They wait to welcome their first-born,
The street waits with bated breath.

They are two diamonds in a sea of rubies,
Both made for one another.

Email # 1 of 2: Of death

And I saw your face

In a crowded place

And all else

Ceased to exist.

Ovais Shaikh.

Everyday I check my email; I'm waiting for my university to reply. And it's always.. like.. you-need-to-be-patient-wala scene.


I finally found an email that I had written a year ago. It's time to update it. I wrote it for my friends and family to read in case I died.

It's interesting how funny I tried to make it. And I'm posting it here, since it was really hard to find it. I'm glad I managed to find a copy after two hours of searching.

See you all on the other side 
First of all, my family. I love you guys. I could always count on you, bug you till it made you angry, and you were always there for me all the time. Mum & Dad, I love you. I'm sorry for all the times I broke the rules, didn't go to sleep and stayed online, did some really dumb things (like driving in the bay view parking lot & crossing the signal on yellow in America & rarely stopping at traffic signals in Karachi) and made you worried with my "come here, quickly!" incidents which were usually nothing special. Thank you for every single thing you did for me; you're awesome people and I'm thankful Allah gave me you as my parents! What else can I say except I love you more than I love anyone else? Ozair & Humza, you guys are older now; it's your turn to be responsible, do all the chores, try keeping your rooms clean and take care of mum & dad. I love you two; I'm really sorry for all the times I ate your cookies, yelled at you, annoyed you for fun, didn't let you play in my room because I had a migraine-I'd do it all again if I had the chance. Be safe, listen to mum and dad-they're always right, and if they're wrong, it's only going to be in college math. I'm sure that dad can find a book for you on that, though, not to worry 

My friends...you guys are awesome, every single one of you. I'm sorry I didn't speak to you as often as I should've. I'm not going to name you all individually since that would take forever. You helped me every time I needed you. You were patient whenever I wanted someone to tease or give me ideas. I can't repay you, but here's how you can pay me back-yes, pay me back, though I owe you-take care of your health and your family. Never let go of them; in fact, go give everyone in your family a hug and tell them you love them. If you actually do it...your parents may think you've gone crazy or had a sudden change of heart, but it'll make your life happier. And when you finish reading this, you can go ask them for that gadget or party you've been wanting to go. 

Those people whom it feels like I've known forever...Abeer ... Muhammad Ishtiaq ... Adil ... Ifra ... Zaki ... Laraib ... Bassam ... Maham ... Hadia ... Rabia ... Mikhael ... Mujtaba ... Salman ... Unsa ... Hafsah ... Maha ... Chau ... Areesha ... you guys are beyong amazing. I can't wait to see you guys again. Don't make it soon, though. Enjoy life.

Stop & Stare

Taking pictures is a birthright.

It was cloudy today and therefore the most amazing sights were there to take pictures of.

See the sun's light coming down through the clouds? See it? Yeah? That's called awesome light.
It's like a natural spotlight.

Now I know what it feels like to stare into the camera and into the sun. Hard to take a picture, yes.

Here's your dare, Areesha :P

Would you make me number one on your playlist?
I woke up feeling sad and down and now I feel.. better. It's not a bad life. Just a few bad days.


The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you soo much, and I'm sorry for every little mistake I've ever done. I used to live life with no regrets-every time I upset you though, I regret it and wish I could change it.