Distracted

So tired. Head hurts. Been out driving. Traffic. Bright lights. Right in my eyes. People honking. Talking to mum. Sleepless nights.

Don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead
And don't be shy, just let your feeling roll on by


You know love is better than a song
Love is where all of us belong
So don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Cat Stevens-Don't Be Shy




I was invigilating today.
Lots of invigilations, more than any other teacher.
I was invigilating today.
The One Who Leaves Me Breathless/The One Who Gives Me Asthma/My Breath-Taker was in the first class I had to invigilate.
I was invigilating today.
And I was so distracted. I kept staring at The One Who Leaves Me and forgetting to keep an eye on the rest of the students.
I was invigilating today.
And I was totally distracted.
So distracted that I've been distracted all day today.




I put on my jeans and shirt and shoes the sameAnd I'll leave my house and show my face againI thought that I could find a way to hide the truthBut everybody knowsEverybody knows
I'm tryna smileI'm tryna lieI'm tryna live another life
Tryna be the me without youIt's like driving in a car with no wheelsFlying through the sky with no wingsA needle in the eye don't stingWhen you're underwater you can't breatheWhen I need to call you I can't reachTryna light a fire with no sparkNo match and no fuseTryna to be me without you
Oh it's hard to find somebody newWhen the only one I'm looking for is youI thought that I could find a way to hide the truthBut everybody knowsEverybody knowsI'm tryna smileI'm tryna lieI'm tryna live another lifeLoick Essien-Me Without You

When's the day you start againAnd when the hell does you'll get over it beginI'm looking hard in the mirrorBut I don't fit my skinIt's too much to takeIt's too hard to break meFrom the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment onI'm changing the way I feel yeahFrom this moment onIt's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to actDon't know what to sayStill wear the scars like it was yesterdayBut you're long gone and moved onCause you're long goneBut I still don't know where to start, still finding my wayStill talk about you like it was yesterdayBut you're long gone and moved onBut you're long gone, you moved onThe Script-Long Gone & Moved on

I'm in a musical mood, yes. Music is what I use to drown out everything. Music and prayers are my tools to relaxing and feeling better.The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you.And I found out today that it is meant to be.

Stop & Stare

Taking pictures is a birthright.

It was cloudy today and therefore the most amazing sights were there to take pictures of.

See the sun's light coming down through the clouds? See it? Yeah? That's called awesome light.
It's like a natural spotlight.

Now I know what it feels like to stare into the camera and into the sun. Hard to take a picture, yes.

Here's your dare, Areesha :P

Would you make me number one on your playlist?
I woke up feeling sad and down and now I feel.. better. It's not a bad life. Just a few bad days.


The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you soo much, and I'm sorry for every little mistake I've ever done. I used to live life with no regrets-every time I upset you though, I regret it and wish I could change it.

Taking it one day at a time

I feel sad and I have no idea why. Even though I smile and laugh, I still feel.. down.

You’re ashamed about
all your fears and doubts
and how I hurt you.
Can you make it back from the aftermath
And how I left you

Nobody wants to be alone,
with the fear of letting go.
If you could hear me say
It`s gonna be okay
would you be okay

And though I`ve gone away
I still see what youre going through.
It kills me everyday,
to know I killed what meant most to you.
So when you pass my grave,
leave a rose for what might have been.
But know that it`s okay
to shed your fears and find love again

For better or worse you`re the one,
I never thought I`d hurt
But looking back on these dreams
nothing is what it seems;
…know that you`ll wake up to better things

And though I`ve gone away
I still see what you`re going through.
It kills me everyday,
to know I killed what meant most to you.
So when you pass my grave,
leave a rose for what might have been.
But know that it`s okay
to shed your fears and find love again

I hear you say
I don`t know how and I don`t know why
but there will come one day
when I will tell you all the things inside.
Just know theres someone above you to help you!

And though I`ve gone away
I still see what you`re going through.
It kills me everyday,
to know I killed what meant most to you.
So when you pass my grave,
leave a rose for what might have been.
But know that it`s okay
to shed your fears and find love again

Boyce Avenue-Briane

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you. I love and only you and I am totally and forever yours.

You leave me.. breathless.

I've tried playing it coolBut when I'm looking at youI can't ever be brave'Cause you make my heart race

I am very exhausted and on the verge on depression, so I'll keep this short.

Shot me out of the skyYou're my KryptoniteYou keep making me weakYeah, frozen and can't breathe

I've been super busy and been feeling sick on and off.

Something's gotta give nowCause I'm dying just to make you seeThat I need you here with me nowCause you've got that one thing

And sleeping a whole lot too.

So get out, get out, get out of my headAnd fall into my arms insteadI don't, I don't, don't know what it isBut I need that one thingAnd you've got that one thing

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you.

Now I'm climbing the wallsBut you don't notice at allThat I'm going out of my mindAll day and all night

I went to the Children's Cancer Hospital today and it went.. well.
This time, I met patients who were from one to sixteen years old.
Here are some pictures from there.

So get out, get out, get out of my headAnd fall into my arms insteadI don't, I don't, don't know what it isBut I need that one thingAnd you've got that one thing

Right. I am off to sleep.

So get out, get out, get out of my mindAnd come on, come into my lifeI don't, I don't, don't know what it isBut I need that one thingAnd you've got that one thing

If you're feeling cold inside, show the world the warmth of your smile

Now and then I think of when we were together

Like when you said you felt so happy you could die

I told myself that you were right for me

But felt so lonely in your company

But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

Compared to last week-which was really hectic and crazy in every way-this week is much quieter and less hectic.

I still have just as much work, but still.

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.

I'll be your hope I'll be your love, be everything that you need.

I'll love you more with every breath.

I feel like I'm..floundering. Drowning. Like every stroke I take could be my last one. Like the ocean will take over and I won't reach the surface before my reserve of air runs out. Like every time I kick my legs to swim up, another wave comes in and takes me deeper into the water.

But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you. I love you soo soo soo much. I will do anything for you.

It's true

I mean it

With all of my heart

I love you.

Now will you

say it too,

that you love me too.

Only you can heal

My broken heart.

I feel sick.

Right, I'm going to go take a walk so my head doesn't hurt that much (hopefully.)

Hope everyone is having a much better week than I am!