I'm forever yours.. Faithfully

Nobody wants to be alone,
with the fear of letting go.
If you could hear me say
It`s gonna be okay
would you be okay


I'm finally feeling better.
Either that, or I'm just smiling anyway.
Or it's being busy with events that it stopping me from thinking sad stuff.
Whatever it is, it's working.


In memory of Abdul Hadi. It's been a week.


Today could have been the day,
That you blow out your candles,
Make a wish as you close your eyes.

Today could have been the day,
Everybody was laughing,Instead I just sit here and cry,


Not a day goes by,
That I don't think of you,
I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose,
Such a ray of light we never knew,
Gone too soon, yeah.

He's in a better place now. His pain is gone.
And he'll be happier than he ever was on earth.
The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, thank you.

I'll never drown now

Even though they try to knock me over
I never fall down
Cause I’m gonna wear the crown
With my feet on the ground

What's up, people? I'm playing music in the staff room after asking the other teachers if they didn't mind hearing it and they started suggesting music that they wanted to hear. Which is fun. I'm starting a new trend. Wakes everyone up.

I know I’m gonna win
So I’mma get it
Watch me soar up to the sky
And fly now

I have a seven day week now. I even have to come to school on Saturdays and Sundays. Which is totally tiring.

I put my hands up, oh na na
And stand up, oh na na
And hold on, oh na na
To everything I know that makes me
So strong, oh na na
And go on, oh na na
I’m ok, oh na na
I’ll raise my voice to them and say

I've finally taken advice that was given to me ages ago from The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, and that advice was to not make one person-her-my everything.
Since every little thing that she did affects me otherwise.
And since she's too young to see how much of what she does affects me.

Although they try to knock me down
Yeah, I’m gonna stand, I’m gonna stand my ground
Hey, I’m gonna open up my heart to give
Yeah, because it’s the only way to live
I’m gonna be positive
Yeah, positive

Which means doing stuff and occupying myself so I don't get time to think of her. Which gets harder every day the less I talk to her.

Which reminds me.
I saw this on Daaneiia's blog at Such Teenage Dreams. And I just had to repost it. Since it is SO TRUE.

Even though you try to pull me under
I never drown now
So I’m gonna ride the wave
I’m not going down now

Birthdayyyyy

Happy Birthday to Areesha from The One Who Leaves Me Breathless and me!

Stop & Stare

Taking pictures is a birthright.

It was cloudy today and therefore the most amazing sights were there to take pictures of.

See the sun's light coming down through the clouds? See it? Yeah? That's called awesome light.
It's like a natural spotlight.

Now I know what it feels like to stare into the camera and into the sun. Hard to take a picture, yes.

Here's your dare, Areesha :P

Would you make me number one on your playlist?
I woke up feeling sad and down and now I feel.. better. It's not a bad life. Just a few bad days.


The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you soo much, and I'm sorry for every little mistake I've ever done. I used to live life with no regrets-every time I upset you though, I regret it and wish I could change it.

Taking it one day at a time

I feel sad and I have no idea why. Even though I smile and laugh, I still feel.. down.

You’re ashamed about
all your fears and doubts
and how I hurt you.
Can you make it back from the aftermath
And how I left you

Nobody wants to be alone,
with the fear of letting go.
If you could hear me say
It`s gonna be okay
would you be okay

And though I`ve gone away
I still see what youre going through.
It kills me everyday,
to know I killed what meant most to you.
So when you pass my grave,
leave a rose for what might have been.
But know that it`s okay
to shed your fears and find love again

For better or worse you`re the one,
I never thought I`d hurt
But looking back on these dreams
nothing is what it seems;
…know that you`ll wake up to better things

And though I`ve gone away
I still see what you`re going through.
It kills me everyday,
to know I killed what meant most to you.
So when you pass my grave,
leave a rose for what might have been.
But know that it`s okay
to shed your fears and find love again

I hear you say
I don`t know how and I don`t know why
but there will come one day
when I will tell you all the things inside.
Just know theres someone above you to help you!

And though I`ve gone away
I still see what you`re going through.
It kills me everyday,
to know I killed what meant most to you.
So when you pass my grave,
leave a rose for what might have been.
But know that it`s okay
to shed your fears and find love again

Boyce Avenue-Briane

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you. I love and only you and I am totally and forever yours.

Broken Yet Holding On

I can see you walking out, I'm not tryna believe it 
There's no way that this can be for real, I'm dreaming 
I can see the water in your eyes, you don't have to do this 
There has got to be a better way, i know it 
Back up the day now 
What did i do to get us to this point 
Me losing you in this moment 
I feel it, deep in my chest i can't breathe 
I can't let go, broken yet holding on 
To you, to us, this love is too strong for me to let go 
Broken yet holding on 

Afraid everything is over now 
The rain clouds is passing 
Still I'm tryna wonder how i lost you 
Are you really over me? You said so, don't believe it 
You were where i wanna be 
I love you 

Back up the day now 
What did i do to get us to this point 
Me losing you in this moment 
I feel it, deep in my chest i can't breathe 

I can't let go, broken yet holding on 
To you to us, this love is too strong for me to let go 
Broken yet holding on 
We said, we'll never give up 
In hard times, when we hit bottom 
We'll try to find the broken pieces of love (pieces of love) 
ooh oohh 

I can't let go, broken yet holding on 
To you to us, this love is too strong for me to let go 
Broken yet holding on

You are the love of my life

Yesterday, when my dad called me to tell me to get ready to go to the doctor, I thought he was right outside, and I got up in a hurry all of a sudden.
Only to sit back down when I realized he was on the way.
It was funny at that time.


Okay, so that was random of me.

Been fighting things that I can't see in
Like voices coming from the inside of me and
Like doing things I find hard to believe in
Am I myself or am I dreaming?

The medicine my doctor gave me is labelled 'poison.' So I can't drink it, I have to smell it instead.

I found that funny when I saw the medicine :P

No I'm not alright
I know that I'm not right
A steering wheel don't mean you can drive
A warm body don't mean I'm alive
No I'm not alright
I know that I'm not right
Feels like I travel but I never arrive
I want to thrive not just survive

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you now and I will always love you. You are amazing, have I ever told you that? Well, you are. Totally amazing, that is. You're the only person in all nineteen years of my existence who has ever left me breathless and totally speechless.

I love physics.

But where was I?

This post isn't really related to anything. Just total and complete randomness.

Which reminds me.

I love taking pictures.

I should go sleep now.

Confusion

I am really confused right now.
And it's not helping my migraine.


Wasn't supposed to post about my migraine.


Okay.


Still feels like puking.


Anyway.


The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you soo soo soo much. I really do. And I only want you to be happy.


I find brilliant ideas everywhere, you know?


So, I got permission to..
Write compliments on sticky notes,
laminate those notes,
and then put them on student's desks from grades nine to eleven.
The point was to make them smile, maybe brighten their day up a bit.

You leave me.. breathless.

I've tried playing it coolBut when I'm looking at youI can't ever be brave'Cause you make my heart race

I am very exhausted and on the verge on depression, so I'll keep this short.

Shot me out of the skyYou're my KryptoniteYou keep making me weakYeah, frozen and can't breathe

I've been super busy and been feeling sick on and off.

Something's gotta give nowCause I'm dying just to make you seeThat I need you here with me nowCause you've got that one thing

And sleeping a whole lot too.

So get out, get out, get out of my headAnd fall into my arms insteadI don't, I don't, don't know what it isBut I need that one thingAnd you've got that one thing

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you.

Now I'm climbing the wallsBut you don't notice at allThat I'm going out of my mindAll day and all night

I went to the Children's Cancer Hospital today and it went.. well.
This time, I met patients who were from one to sixteen years old.
Here are some pictures from there.

So get out, get out, get out of my headAnd fall into my arms insteadI don't, I don't, don't know what it isBut I need that one thingAnd you've got that one thing

Right. I am off to sleep.

So get out, get out, get out of my mindAnd come on, come into my lifeI don't, I don't, don't know what it isBut I need that one thingAnd you've got that one thing

I don't want to live without you.

So my brother made my day by telling me I looked better without my tie and that it was my handsomeness that put it all together.
That just made my day, you know?


My week so far has been really tiring. I was sick yesterday and recovering today.


And I met a friend whom I did not expect to meet for another three years.


But I'm hungry now and trying to not think at all. It's one way to beat the depressive thoughts that come.



It's when you're down, when you feel like you're losing, and you get back up and try again, and again, and again that you know you'll be okay.

When friends fail, your family will be there for you. When your family isn't around, remember, God is always with you. And He will never let you down.



There's a joke that I tried on a few friends-Text them and tell them you saw them on TV. When they ask where and what they were doing, tell them it was Animal Planet and they were picking their nose or something.
I did that yesterday and the responses made me laugh. And I really needed that laugh.


I know many of you have been wondering what The One Who Leaves Me Breathless looks like. I'm not going to give you a heart attack by putting your picture up, meri jaan-I would lose all my followers since they'd be overwhelmed by your awesomeness-and I'm not going to put one up without asking you. And maybe one day you'll let me. One day, after years, maybe.


But.


The One Who Leaves Me Breathless is much more beautiful than your favorite model/actress. And more amazing-I just don't have words enough to describe her, there are no words in the dictionary to describe her fully-than anyone else in the world.


Who is she?
She's the only girl in the world, at least for me. Just felt like saying all that.


You may notice that nothing in this post is related to anything that came before it.
It's called..
Randomness!


You are my only one
You are my only one
That's all I know


And now I'm going to go watch a movie. It's called A Warrior's Heart, and it's a really interesting movie that I watched yesterday and liked enough to watch again.
Oh, and guess who's back??

Cheeku, that's who!