I'll never drown now

Even though they try to knock me over
I never fall down
Cause I’m gonna wear the crown
With my feet on the ground

What's up, people? I'm playing music in the staff room after asking the other teachers if they didn't mind hearing it and they started suggesting music that they wanted to hear. Which is fun. I'm starting a new trend. Wakes everyone up.

I know I’m gonna win
So I’mma get it
Watch me soar up to the sky
And fly now

I have a seven day week now. I even have to come to school on Saturdays and Sundays. Which is totally tiring.

I put my hands up, oh na na
And stand up, oh na na
And hold on, oh na na
To everything I know that makes me
So strong, oh na na
And go on, oh na na
I’m ok, oh na na
I’ll raise my voice to them and say

I've finally taken advice that was given to me ages ago from The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, and that advice was to not make one person-her-my everything.
Since every little thing that she did affects me otherwise.
And since she's too young to see how much of what she does affects me.

Although they try to knock me down
Yeah, I’m gonna stand, I’m gonna stand my ground
Hey, I’m gonna open up my heart to give
Yeah, because it’s the only way to live
I’m gonna be positive
Yeah, positive

Which means doing stuff and occupying myself so I don't get time to think of her. Which gets harder every day the less I talk to her.

Which reminds me.
I saw this on Daaneiia's blog at Such Teenage Dreams. And I just had to repost it. Since it is SO TRUE.

Even though you try to pull me under
I never drown now
So I’m gonna ride the wave
I’m not going down now

Stand By Me

So lay me down
Tell me what I wanna hear
Take me down
There's nobody else I'd rather be with.


I am feeling much, much, much better.
All because of the only person who always stands by me and helps me.
The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you. I love you so so so much. Smile.


This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear.

I love the winter weather. And it's finally here. Holidays and the cool breeze means that December is always awesome. And the world celebrates my birthday.


If we don't kill ourselves,
We'll be the leaders of a messed-up generation.


I am focusing on the positive side of things. Nothing negative, as of now. Amen.


A huge Thank-You to the other side of me at the other side of me for awarding me!
Here's what she said:

I was at Hyperstar the other day, thinking of Edward Maya's This is My life when they played it. I almost, almost, almost smiled then. That song has one memory. A three day memory, of when I was going to America last year. I listened to that song non-stop during the way.


This, this is my life
I'm looking for you, searching love in your eyes
This, this is my life
I'm chasing a dream that fades away in the night.

I love the breeze outside. It's just perfect. December has so many memories. Some are happy. And some are sad.


And the heart has no face
And I promise you that our thing
Is never going to end
And love lives in the soul

You leave me breathless.

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You're my brightest star

I am not going to post about migraines again.
Amen.
They're just part of everyday life.
And some people don't bother helping anymore.
So yeah.


I'll be here, by your side
No more fears, no more crying
But if you walk away
I know I'll fade
Cause there is nobody else.

I've had an interesting day.


I made a bet with sixth graders that they could hit me if the volleyball from my game hit them. And I lost that bet.


I asked for 'a bottle of pani and a bottle of water' in one sentence.


I was thinking of The One Who Leaves Me Breathless and cleaning my glasses and I walked into the wrong class and the teacher is staring at me like, um hello, what do you want?


I had fifty questions answered in one little favor not done. Yes, like fifty. And I was right about each and every one of them.


I was standing at the cafeteria/canteen when a bird pooped.. and it fell an inch away from my foot. What bird dared to aim for me, I have no idea. But it did miss :D


I played 'Angry Birds' for the first time during my only free class today.


There was a story about how a boy fell into a well, and the third grader said that it explained how to fall into a well.


I was woken up an hour after I wanted to wake up.. by my brother, who bashed my face will pillows. Lovely way to wake up from a dream, I tell you. Sarcasm, yes.


You've got to stand for something or you'll fall for anything.


I just realized that there are five days of holidays coming up. So no seeing her everyday.


Lose your clothes and show your scars
Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me on the floor.


Areesha Bilal just changed her blog address to this new one. So you'll have to re-follow her or add her new page to your bookmarks. Click here for the link.

There's like ten minutes to twelve, so Imma post this now. Hope everyone has an enjoyalbe Friday! :)

You leave me breathless

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do.

I am happy right now.
I woke up with a migraine.
And it ended two hours ago.

I feel like jumping up and down, even though I'm soo tired.
And I feel like sitting down and having a long & serious chat, and cheering you up.
You deserve to be so much more happier.
I know I'm not perfect, but I'm trying. I love you and I really, really, really care about you.

Have you heard the Llama song?

Or the gummy bear song?

And when we have babies they will look like you
It'll be so beautiful like a dream come true
You don't even know how very special you are.


So I have a mid-term break, so I won't be teaching till Tuesday. So I can relax and study until then :)
But I won't see her face till Tuesday. Hm.


You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life.


Today, I was given work to do all day, even though I felt like puking and I almost fell down the stairs three times. But I managed to get through it all by looking at a paper ship that I made.. with my three favorite people's names on it.
Her name. Ayza. And Aral.
I dreamt of all three again last night. :)

Eragon's part four is coming out in November Eight!!! Yes, it's a book. An amazing, amazing book.

Areesha just gave me these two hilarious videos to watch.

And I found out that two of my students in grade seven are gay. I'm not going to tell you what they were doing-that would pop wrong images in your head-and I was like what. the. fudge. I glared at them and made them stop what they were doing. Annoying when you have a migraine, I tell you.

You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine.


This is my 100th post!!!!!


So here's a thank you to someone who showed me her blog and made me realize that there is one place where I can be me.
Ifra at I feel a funny coming. And zombies.

Scattered shards

These are thoughts from today..


Morning, 11:40 am.
You hurt my soul,
Time and time again.
You have my heart,
And yet you break it,
Time and time again.


I can't find the pieces.


I gave you my heart to keep,
It's up to you;
Whether you look for those tiny shards,
And make my heart whole again,
Or trample all over the scattered shards.

Yes, I wrote it. No music lyrics. :)

Still alive but I'm barely breathing.
I'm falling to pieces..

Yes, I'm listening to sad music.

I have a class now, so Imma go.. hope I'll be in a better mood. Though I doubt it..

Afternoon, 1:10 pm.
Much better.. They'd finished their work, so I got to give them a free period.. and we played volleyball.

Everybody wants an answer
Everybody needs a friend
We all need a shining star on which we can depend
And so tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before (to find what you're looking for).

I want you to look inside you. Stop thinking about studies. About friends. About me. About this blog. Think, instead, about what you really want right now.

Is it a friend?
Is it someone who loves you?
Is it knowing that someone will be there?
Is it a change of belief?
Or is it.. is it trusting what someone tells you?
Is it telling someone what's really going on?
If it's sleep, rest, food, or something that you can get, go for it.
Otherwise, think.


That was serious, wasn't it? :P

We all need a shining star when thing ain't what they seem
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before.


My head hurts. From thinking too much. And forcing myself to eat a few skittles for breakfast. I feel like puking :(

This is a sad post, and that is annoying me. Yes, I am getting annoyed. You know how rare that is? For me to get really annoyed AND show it?
And it's not even anyone's fault that this is a sad post.
No, I don't blame anyone. Except myself. All the time.

Night, 9:10 pm.


Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you in the corner of the street.


There was such a lovely cold breeze this morning. I can't wait for winter.
Even though my throat hurts already, I accidentally added pepper to my fries instead of masala yesterday, and had half before I found out what the taste was.

Hello darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk to you again.

All of my heart

I was SO distracted today. Throughout school and even while driving.
I had to like focus like I used to in America. Which meant driving more slowly and stopping at every intersection, even if it didn't have a signal.

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing.

And yes, I was distracted because I was thinking about The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.
You've taken over me, yes, indeed.
And even now, I'm thinking of you..

Right. Where was I?
Ah yes. So, today, I finally finished making a ship. Yes, I made it myself..

I was carrying it around all day since I wanted to show it to her. And all the students in my classes wanted to touch it and wanted me to make them one.

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all.


I really don't feel like studying today, but I will when she does. Feels wrong to not study when she is. That way, we're both going through the torture. :P

Ooh, I'm going to post a guest post from her on Saturday. :D

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they can never defy
What's been said between your heart and mine.


Has anyone seen Pirates of the Caribbean: Stranger Tides yet? I'm downloading it on HD.

I just got back from picking up my brother from school. Driving at 5ish was just Ugh. I have a head ache now.. And I felt like showing the finger to a few drivers, but my parents brought me up differently, so I'll get it out of my system now.
If you can't drive, don't. And don't honk at me when I've stopped at a red light! Oh, and if you can't find space between my car and the sidewalk, go over the sidewalk!

Feels much better.

Aah, head hurts.

Where were we?
Ah, yes.

I was going to mail you something that would make you smile. But I don't think the TCS people will let me stay in the box. So, Imma show you something else instead, and I hope it makes you grin. Not just smile. Grin. A long, happy, grin.