I dream about you all the time

this is my December 
this is my time of the year 
this is my December 
this is all so clear.


This is my seventieth post with The One Who Leaves Me Breathless having her own tag.


I find it awesome. Why? It just feels that way.


What's going on these days? Exams. I had my first ever invigilation today. And I'll let something out here and only here.
I was nervous during it.
No idea why.
Probably thought I'd mess up somehow.


Guess what?
I didn't mess up. Feels so unbelievably good.


Which reminds me. The teachers at my school have an annual badminton tournament. And it started today. So wish me luck :)


And exams remind me of one more thing. Yeah, we all hate teachers who pick on us and are strict or whose teaching styles we don't understand. But all those teachers put in soo much effort that as of yesterday, after watching them work on their exam papers and make it easier and smoother to have the exams, I respect every single one of them.


Yeah, I respected them already, but now it's like.. Like I understand why those teachers are like the way they are. I don't think I'm making sense, but the feeling makes sense to me, so (Y).


Cause when I needed a place to hang my heart
You were there to wear it from the start
And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I see


I went to my doctor last week and got a new medicine. It is TINY. And it's supposed to take two weeks before it starts working properly.
But today is Day Twelve of this migraine.
There's only one person-yes, The One Who Leaves Me Breathless-who keeps me going.
I love you, you awesome person.

Tay Tay at My love/hate relationship with the world had a competition a long time ago where she gave us two prompts and we could write on either.
I picked 'Cake or Pie.'
Trust me, my short story was funny.
At least I think it was (Y).


The '(Y)' is an influence from The One Who Leaves Me Breathless. :D


And here's what I wrote:


"Hey, you there!"

"Tum, haan, tum!" (You, yes you!)

My friends and I stopped walking and turned around to see who was yelling at us. I was the Head Boy and Student Council President at my school, so it was rare for someone to scream 'you' instead of my name. My friends were Prefects-students who are elected to enforce the rules and get a few perks in exchange for doing duty during recess. The Head Boy is the student who watches over the Prefects, so you get the idea of how and why almost everyone in my high school knew me.

It was one of the new students in school. He had seemed like a polite and shy student initially, but he quickly fell in with the daredevils of the school. And since he was new, I hadn't had time to add his name to my extensive list of names.

I didn't merit his yell with a yell on my own. Instead, I raised one eyebrow.. like my school's principal does.

Now it takes a lot to surprise me. I live in a country which is at war with terrorists. My city has more gang violence and mugging than New York and Shanghai combined. So I usually know what to do when someone gets hurt badly, when there's an accident, when a friend's car is stopped by the side of a road and he's standing next to it, or when something happens.

I wasn't prepared for this, though.

"Pick! Cake or Pie?"

He was holding a vanilla cake in one hand. A small one. And there was an.. apple pie in the other hand.

Now why someone would offer me cake or pie without having laced it with poison is beyond me.

"Cake."

I wanted to see how much he would ask me to pay for it.

He walked over-until he was a pace away-and asked me to repeat it, he couldn't hear me.

"Cake.."

I was in for yet another shock.

"SPLAT!!!!"

Yes, it was thrown at my face.

Right. On. My. Face.

Well, it tasted good.

Staring out into the sounds
Maybe it was all true
Maybe it was from the start
The story of a broken heart
Stand up and I'll tell you
Now everything was torn apart


Have an amazing weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Positive Energy in a migraine (Y) (Y)

Stand By Me

So lay me down
Tell me what I wanna hear
Take me down
There's nobody else I'd rather be with.


I am feeling much, much, much better.
All because of the only person who always stands by me and helps me.
The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you. I love you so so so much. Smile.


This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear.

I love the winter weather. And it's finally here. Holidays and the cool breeze means that December is always awesome. And the world celebrates my birthday.


If we don't kill ourselves,
We'll be the leaders of a messed-up generation.


I am focusing on the positive side of things. Nothing negative, as of now. Amen.


A huge Thank-You to the other side of me at the other side of me for awarding me!
Here's what she said:

I was at Hyperstar the other day, thinking of Edward Maya's This is My life when they played it. I almost, almost, almost smiled then. That song has one memory. A three day memory, of when I was going to America last year. I listened to that song non-stop during the way.


This, this is my life
I'm looking for you, searching love in your eyes
This, this is my life
I'm chasing a dream that fades away in the night.

I love the breeze outside. It's just perfect. December has so many memories. Some are happy. And some are sad.


And the heart has no face
And I promise you that our thing
Is never going to end
And love lives in the soul

You leave me breathless.

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Come back, come back, come back to me

11:11 11.11.11

You call these life updates, don't you?

Yes, I deleted my blog.

I'm not going to elaborate on what happened.

I was just really depressed and I ended up deleting my blog.
I still don't feel like eating, feel like puking instead.

Forgive me, please. I really am sorry.

If I stumble,

If I fall,

Forgive me,

I'm learning as I go along.

I know you all probably want to know exactly what happened. But it's the past. And I'm working on letting go of everything. And going with the flow. And being positive.

People say life is filled with ups and downs,
But where does the line start from?
People say life is unfair,
But who decides what fair is?


I love one person,
And give her all of me,
I give her every bit,
I hold nothing back.


I try to expect nothing in return,
So that when something negative happens, I can take it,
And when the amazing happens, then that is the best feeling,
But life doesn't work that way, even though I try.

But since humans are curious people, here's what happened:

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Read at your own risk. The password is 'relax'

Apart from that, I had an interesting Eid. I didn't do much, but I got my life back on track, sort of.
I'm trusting in God much more now-after all, He is the One who helps, right?


And then I went back to school. And yesterday was just one..I don't know what to call it.
Twelve teachers were absent. A substitute teacher's nightmare. So since Superman can't divide into twelve, my supervisor gave classes to other teachers. Thank God. Else I would have been depressed and dead.


Apart from all that, I made this for my mom. She teaches Grade Three. And they're doing China. So since I love Origami, I used Kirigami to make this. With my own design. Kirigami, by the way, is the version of Origami where you get to cut the paper.

Words hurt more than sticks and stones.

The shadows lengthen as the sun falls,
The sky darkens as your thoughts cloud.


Look you, as you try to rebuild your life,
Focus on what you had, and you shall live in what was.
Focus on what you could have now, and you shall live in gloom.
Focus on what could be, and you shall live and not live.


Look deep within yourself,
What would they have wanted?
What would they have wanted, you, to do?
What would they have wanted, you, to focus on?


Forget them not, they were the best.
Forget them not, they lived as well as the could.
Forget them not, or you do the world a disfavor.
Forget them not, or you do unto them an insult.


Remember, but use that memory to help you.
Remember, but use what you know to guide you.
Remember, but use everything to improve and work harder.
Remember, but do not stop to day dream.


I went to see Karachi-A Musical. Amazing, I tell you!

I can finally, finally shift gears like it's Need For Speed. Now I can finally beat automatic cars when they honk behind me and annoy me. So yay :D

 This is what my Eid was like:

You guys remember Aral, right? My Aral's namesake?
If not, read the post before this one.
This is his work. :D

So yes. I lost track of what I was thinking and wanted to say when The One Who Leaves Me Breathless was in front of me. I was just totally speechless.

Thank you to Furree, Areesha, and Hadia for being there for me when I needed someone to be there for me..Even though I'm not taking any of their advice. :P


The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you. So much. So, so, so much.


I'll be here, by your side
No more fears, no more crying
But if you walk away
I know I'll fade
Cause there is nobody else.

You're on my mind.. Like all the time.

No, wait. You're always on my mind.
Who am I referring to?
I'm talking about The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.


She's my most favorite person in this world. She's the one who motivates me all the time. She's the one I'll do anything for. Which is why I'm trying to be positive. She loves me too, yes, for those of my followers who missed out on that post. She's just really busy studying. Oh, and she's smarter than I was at her age, but don't let that go to your head, okay? :P

That is how you jumped on me and hugged me in my dream, by the way.


Oh girl, you stand.. by me.
I'm forever yours.. faithfully.


Right, so. I have a migraine again. I had one yesterday. That was a horrible, horrible, horrible one. This is better. I really really feel like puking, though. But I am still trying to be positive here.


If I stumble,
if I fall,
Forgive me,
I'm just learning as I go along.


I have a question. Why did humpty dumpty sit on the wall?


Randomness, I know.

Smile, an everlasting smile,
A smile can bring you near to me.
Don't ever let me find you gone,
Cause that would bring a tear to me.


If you ever have to walk on the road and not on the sidewalk, always in the middle. That way, any car will see you. And you have a much higher chance of being run down too :D


This world has lost it's glory
Let's start a brand new story.


It's supposed to rain this week. In Karachi. Amen to that, LOL.


Remember how I said that I would post more of my quotes and stuff? I have a bunch of quotes on the page up there somewhere. *Points up.*


These are different ones.


Sometimes you just have to run away
So you can see who will come after you.
Sometimes you just have to talk quieter
Just to see who's listening.
Sometimes you have to step up in a fight
Only to see who's standing by your side.
Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision
Only to see who's there to fix it.
You have to let you of the one you love
Just to see if they will ever come back.


Always forgive your enemies. Nothing annoys them so much.


Two wrongs don't make a right. But three lefts do.


To love at all is to be vulnerable-C.S. Lewis.


This wasn't a long post. I have a migraine, so please bear with me.
And no, no new surprises yet. But I'm working on three big projects. :D

Have an awesome week!!!