This is my life

I have no new crazy ideas right now.

It's a first for me.

Though I did walk like Mr Bean does-his weird dance.

And I lost at chess because I sent my King to kill a Pawn.

And when I realized how mad that had been, I laughed till I cried.

Oh, and my sleeping patterns have changed soo much. I sleep between 11pm and 4am, then wake up for gym at 7am (shudders, I hate waking up for gym of all things) and then crash from 9am to 4pm. Amazing schedule. Why did I give specific times? So if anyone else out there has similar crazy timings, we can compare notes of what we do that makes us sleep in those timings.

Compare notes?

Did I really say that?

Must be losing it.

Oh wait.

I never had it.

I do not mind if I die trying

School is (almost) over. Just one more day to go. Then two months of relaxation (I hope).

I don't have much to do in school now, since all the teachers have stuff that only they alone can do so they can't give any of it to me :)

Soo I spent today making the Sydney Opera House design using Kiri gami. It looked better upside down, so yeah.

I have been bound by the shackles of love

And I don't mind if I die tied up

This is where I got the idea from.

Maroon Five is AwEsOmE

School's almost over.
And I feel like I've woken up after four years.
It's time to be patient, let go, and enjoy life.
Even if life is worrying at times.

When something good happens everyday, think to yourself that it can't get any better, and does get better.
I tried it.. with amazing results.

Apart from that, I got into Rutgers University. I am soo mega excited about going there in August, inshaAllah.

Oh, and my dad said something today that I simply loved.
He was talking to my cousin, who had brought her baby daughter over to our house.
"Little babies are amazing and people, and then they grow up to be like you."


The guy who always used to yell 'Manzoor' (which is a name that also means 'do you accept') doesn't yell that anymore. So I can't yell 'Na Manzoor' (I don't accept) to irritate him anymore. Which is totally sad, yes. It used to make my day doing that.


Oh, and sadly, Manchester United (my favorite team, of course) lost the Premier League, and Manchester City won-their first title in forty years, I think?-and I found a really funny joke about it, even though it's making fun of Manchester United.


Which reminds me of nothing at all. Oh yes. Talking..like...this..really..makes..my..head..take..a...pause...every..single..time.. :P

Oh, and this is a sad poem that I wrote that I really don't want to post but posted it already and then removed it and found it too sad and so I've encrypted it now.. If you got what that meant, good for you. I typed it in a way that it was intended to confuse you.
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In other news, the tiger jumped over the house. I have no idea where that came from, but it's there now.
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

One Hundred Consecutive Posts

I'm counting the street lights
It's all i can do
While driving myself crazy trying to get to you
Feels wrong at the right time
To reveal my hand
It's like i'm doing the worst i can
To make you understand

And this makes one hundred consecutive posts where I have said something about The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

I am going to post less about her now. Only when she's on my mind a lot. It's part of working on focusing on other stuff so she's not my everything. Since anything can happen, and making someone your everything is..dangerous.


The kind of person worth sticking with is someone who thinks the sun shines on you whether you are in a good mood or a bad mood, whether you feel ugly or pretty, whether you're handsome or not.

I took a day off from school today. Had a terrible migraine. It was my first day off, so you can imagine how bad it was. I usually go even with a migraine.

Dekha na tha, kabhi hum ney yeh sama

Aisa nasha, tere pyar ney diya

Socha na tha

Kho gayay sapnon mein hum

So I finished my homework once my migraine hurt a bit less and spent the day relaxing and watching Juno-which turned out to be a lame movie-and Post Grad and Equilibrium.

A friend of mine asked me why I stayed in Karachi instead of going to America. My response? Didn't feel like it. Love the weather here. Especially sea view. And the camels there. Though they smell like crazy. :P

Now I am going to go sleep. Enjoy the pictures!

Dunya humein ab jo kahe
Dunya ki rasmon ko tor tor chalein
Rahein humein ab jo kahe
Raahon ki baahon ko chor chor chale

Will you be my chamack chalo?

Hii.


I am happy. Yes, very happy. Even though I miss The One Who Leaves Me Breathless like a lot.


Compare that to how I was yesterday. It was like how the rest of the year had been.


I woke up sad, my friend's dad had passed away, and so I spent time with him. His mum had passed away in January, so he really needed someone to keep checking on him.


But yeah, I went to my great-grandmother's house after that. And I got my camera. Which I had waited a long time for!

My present from mum.

don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see


And I just love my camera. It is amazing. And I can finally take awesomer pictures! I've been taking pictures since sixth grade. Using an ancient Fuji camera and my cellphone camera.

This is a picture of a model of the Great Wall that one of my teachers got me.

See how amazing my pictures turn out to be?
Where was I? Oh, yeah. How yesterday was.


My last day of being Eighteen was.. okay. Did I already say that?
Anyway.


I played cricket. Something I haven't done in years. Like a proper game with my brothers. Since I love soccer.
And I listened to music for most of the day.


Girl you are my chammak challo.
Where you go girl, I'm gonna follow.
What you want girl just let me know.
You can be my chammak challo.


My baby cousin was dancing to Chammak Challo and that reminded me of Aral and Ayza. Aral and Ayza are, by the way, the two babies that I dream about and will, with God's will and blessing, see one day.
Which reminds me, I was missing The One Who Leaves Me Breathless so much that I actually forgot I was turning nineteen soon.

And today?
Today was.. new. different. a new experience. But then it's the new experiences that make life worthwhile, don't they?


I thought that my beloved was asleep, since she had a very exhausting day. She surprised me, and really made my day.

I was praying at that time-for her, yes-and it's something I do on every birthday when the clock strikes twelve. I pray. There is no better way to start the new year, is there?


I slept quite a bit. And texted a lot. And ordered Dunkin, since my friends forgot it was my birthday and told me they couldn't come to hang out at Dunkin Donuts.

And above all, I took pictures with my new camera. It's the best feeling ever. The third best feeling after being loved and knowing that there is a God above.

Forgiven. :)

Therefore, so far, my nineteenth birthday has gone.. okayish.
The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you and miss you soo much.


I really hope that this is as random as my posts used to be.