365 Day Project, Day 147

Everyone loves Frosted Flakes. Right?

Missing teaching & 365 Day Project, Day 139

Hey.

Oh, heyy.

Hey, you.

Oh, hey there.

(Anyway.)

I just spent two minutes trying to figure out whether the full stop after 'anyway' should be inside the bracket, or outside. That's my OCD speaking, and it's really, really, really getting annoying. I actually used hand sanitizer after every time a customer handed me cash at work yesterday, and I was going crazy trying to stop myself, but my hands felt dirty if I didn't use it, so yeahh.

(Anyway.)

*closes eyes, takes a deep breath, opens eyes*

I've been missing Karachi and Bay View (Academy) so much this past month. I would wake up and miss that feeling of excitement that I had while going to work every morning-I'd usually be one of the first teachers there just because I loved it so much. Yes, I was busy most of the time, overworked some days, even, but I loved every second of it. Well, the part where I had to proctor tests & exams, give detentions, yell at someone, not so much. But the rest? Oh yes. I would love to go back any day.

I miss my students the most, though. The funny ones, the ones who were different from everyone else-those I respect the most, cause they didn't try to fit in, they just behaved like themselves-the ones who made life interesting, all of them. (That sentence was really a fragment, but aah, who cares?)

I would hate to go back as a student, though, cause I hated life as a student there. I was bullied and I fought back, beating everyone with my grades and climbing up to be a Prefect, and then Head Boy. I earned all that, and I'm proud of it. I still did not like life as a student there, even as a Prefect or Head Boy. I remember, I borrowed Twilight from a friend because I was so curious to find out what it was about, and my classmates asked me if I liked romance and vampires and stuff. I don't, but I do like books, and learning something new, reading something new, even if it's the random-est thing in the world, is something that I love doing.

(Anyway.)

I was watching this video about where a guy asks, 'what would you do as a profession if money didn't matter?'

My answer was so simple; all I want to do is teach. Be back at Bay View Academy, have a house with a small farm or something, two dogs, maybe get married and have children (cause I've dreamt of my children, so I really do want to meet them), but, yes, teach.

I'm so proud of all my students-I may not have taught them much, I may not have impacted their lives much, they may not think of me much, but I think of them, and I'm so proud of them when they tell me how they're doing, how they're handling things, and it's this feeling that I did something good, that I helped make a change, even a small one, maybe, but I did something that was so supremely awesome, and I love that feeling.

(Anyway.)

I was on my way to class today and I smelt a smell that I hadn't smelled since summer in Karachi. So, I stopped, sniffed around for a good ten minutes-yes, I looked so crazy sniffing and smelling plants-but I found the tree and the flower that was giving off that smell.

Did you know that flowers attract bees/moths/bats/other animals to themselves with their smell or their look or their fruit? They do it so that the insect or animal can take that fruit or the flower attaches pollen grains to the insect/animal and the insect/animal takes the pollen, flies/walks away, and then disperses the pollen, so that the seed is planted for more plants to grow? That was, like, the shortest summary I could give.

Other orchids have an opening in such a way that the insect flies into the opening, and the sides of the opening attach pollen grains on the insect's back. The insect crawls through and goes to a different orchid and the opening takes the pollen grains from the back, and therefore the plant can produce more seeds.

It was amazing watching that video in Biology-I just love learning about (almost) anything and everything, so it was incredible how God has designed nature so operate. Just.. amazing. I'm still looking for that video, so I can watch the full movie of it.

Going back to the original point, I took a picture of the plant when I got back to my apartment at night, cause I didn't think of taking a picture in the afternoon. That's my picture for today.

Oompa loompa, dooba di doo

Dum de dum.
I wonder how many posts I've started with that.
Probably a lot.
Or maybe very few.
Anyway.
Not to deviate from the point.
Which is ironic, since there was no point to begin with.
I just felt like writing.
Totally tired and sleepy, but yeah, feel like writing.
Cause I haven't written anything long and random (which is pretty much exactly the way I speak) in a while.
And yes, I write the exact same way that I talk.
Like, you could be talking to me, and this is exact how I would be speaking.
What was I saying?
Oh yeah. I feel like writing.

She pushes the shovel into the fresh soil with her right foot and starts making a hole.
Her younger brother of nine years joins in and they work on digging a hole together.
The girl is eleven.
An even younger brother runs out with a smaller shovel.
He's seven, but he wants to help, and they let him join in.
A five year old girl walks toward them with two large dogs jumping around her.

I'll leave it to everyone to figure out who the characters are.

I try to do at least one crazy thing every day.
So, yesterday, I sang, 'In the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight' at the top of my voice in a crowded dining hall. It was a tiny bit embarrassing when everyone turned to look at me and didn't join in or laugh, but I hope I made someone's day. And my two friends who dared me to do it ditched me instead of standing right behind me. But yeah, it was fun, and it still feels good.

And I'm going to keep editing this post and add pictures to this post for a few days so people see this update first. :)

This tool could have saved me hours of my life.

This is my life

I have no new crazy ideas right now.

It's a first for me.

Though I did walk like Mr Bean does-his weird dance.

And I lost at chess because I sent my King to kill a Pawn.

And when I realized how mad that had been, I laughed till I cried.

Oh, and my sleeping patterns have changed soo much. I sleep between 11pm and 4am, then wake up for gym at 7am (shudders, I hate waking up for gym of all things) and then crash from 9am to 4pm. Amazing schedule. Why did I give specific times? So if anyone else out there has similar crazy timings, we can compare notes of what we do that makes us sleep in those timings.

Compare notes?

Did I really say that?

Must be losing it.

Oh wait.

I never had it.

I'll never drown now

Even though they try to knock me over
I never fall down
Cause I’m gonna wear the crown
With my feet on the ground

What's up, people? I'm playing music in the staff room after asking the other teachers if they didn't mind hearing it and they started suggesting music that they wanted to hear. Which is fun. I'm starting a new trend. Wakes everyone up.

I know I’m gonna win
So I’mma get it
Watch me soar up to the sky
And fly now

I have a seven day week now. I even have to come to school on Saturdays and Sundays. Which is totally tiring.

I put my hands up, oh na na
And stand up, oh na na
And hold on, oh na na
To everything I know that makes me
So strong, oh na na
And go on, oh na na
I’m ok, oh na na
I’ll raise my voice to them and say

I've finally taken advice that was given to me ages ago from The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, and that advice was to not make one person-her-my everything.
Since every little thing that she did affects me otherwise.
And since she's too young to see how much of what she does affects me.

Although they try to knock me down
Yeah, I’m gonna stand, I’m gonna stand my ground
Hey, I’m gonna open up my heart to give
Yeah, because it’s the only way to live
I’m gonna be positive
Yeah, positive

Which means doing stuff and occupying myself so I don't get time to think of her. Which gets harder every day the less I talk to her.

Which reminds me.
I saw this on Daaneiia's blog at Such Teenage Dreams. And I just had to repost it. Since it is SO TRUE.

Even though you try to pull me under
I never drown now
So I’m gonna ride the wave
I’m not going down now

You know I'd do anything for you

Giant steps are what you take

Walking on the moon

I hope my leg don't break

Walking on the moon.

I didn't post yesterday, I know. I had a really bad migraine.

But I met up with two friends and we had a lot of fun. Fun like I haven't had since.. April. It was a good thing that none of my students saw me. They'd wonder how mature we were, messing around and throwing water and going into the dodgem cars area.

And later, in the evening, when I had just woken up and was in the kitchen getting water, the 'Manzoor hai' yell came again. I was really tempted to yell back, but I had a migraine then.

[Manzoor is a name. 'Manzoor hai' means 'Is Manzoor there?' and it also means 'Do you accept.' So you can see why it's so funny when this guy yells that at least once a week.]

So that was mostly what I did yesterday.

This morning, I woke up to the sound of people yelling outside the house. Now I just had a dream that people were fighting outside my house while we were getting ready to go somewhere, so I got up and found out that it was a donkey race in the alley outside the apartment complex.

Yes, laugh. :P

And this is the sound clip of me playing Kiss the rain/Bella's lullaby for the third and fourth times. The fourth time is worth the wait, trust me.

And this is me playing 'Happy Birthday' and then part of 'Jingle Bells'

Apart from all that, I got a B in American Government (Yay, I guess.). The One Who Leaves Me Breathless said that I should be thankful for a B. It was a hard class and a fast track one, but I wanted an A. You can't have everything, I guess. So I'm happy.

It's got to be the crunkest
It's got to be the loudest
It's got to be the best love song she ever heard in her life,


I made these to surprise The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

No need for me to write it,
I just gotta picture her smiling.


I found these pictures.. taken from when I was in a picture taking mood.

It's rare for me to want to take pictures, like a lot of pictures. It started when I was in sixth grade. My class went on a field trip to Lahore. My parents gave me a camera (we didn't have decent digital ones back then). So I spent most of my money on camera rolls.. and when we developed the pictures, out of eleven hundred pictures, five had people in them. The rest had scenery.. of the museums. The sights along the way. The Lahore Fort.
I take amazing pictures of scenery, yes. It made my dad mad enough to take out his digital camera and teach me how I should take pictures.

These are three out of eight of my first students. I taught them English as a Second Language. Bit old to be my students, but they learnt a lot. :)

These are two turtles at the Dallas Forth Worth aquarium.

If I could just see you
Everything would be alright
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light.

I saw your face, and that's the last I've seen of my heart

The title is from You are the woman by Firefall, yes.

It's you, and me
Moving at the speed of light.

I'm smiling right now.
I needed a reason to smile. And Naked Reality at Naked Reality made me smile.

So today I read this post about how people don't know if they are loved or needed.
You never know what may happen tomorrow. The person whom you like may get sick. Or you might. Hey, this is life. So tell them that you love them. Yeah, even your family. You won't regret not telling them that way.

Oh, and I read another post about love marriages and arranged marriages. And these websites like singlemuslim.com and God knows what others there are.
In February, a friend of mine was telling me and a few other friends how she wants to get married between 21 and 23, have two boy twins first, two girl twins next, and then no babies for a while. Oh, and her husband must know how to cook and clean the house and listen to her.
So we (okay, it was my idea) made her an account on singlemuslim.com and put all that into her Bio.
The emails we got made us laugh until we decided to delete the account before someone found it and went crazy. But.. I just go LOL whenever I remember that.

Right, so that was random, yes, but it was sensible randomness. I think I just created a new term.

Just shoot for the stars
If it feels right
And aim for my heart
If you feel like.

I'm addicted to Maroon 5's Moves Like Jagger right now.

So I have an exam tomorrow. And I'm off from work/school till Tuesday, so I can concentrate on online classes now. Yay, I think.

Surprise!!!!!
I'm using my Nokia Nuron camera to take pictures now. I love Nokias, yes, and Imma use this camera till I get a decent one on my birthday.
Yes, I'm patient to wait. :)

Wherever you go,
Whatever you do,
I will be right here waiting for you.

Ji, that's from a classic song. My parents have these two Cd's of classic songs that they made for each other. And so I learnt all these classics by heart. Depressing songs, some of them, but still love songs.

Oh, and yes. I watch Star Wars: Clone Wars: Animated and Young Justice. They are cartoons, yes, but they make more sense to me than the Simpsons. Oh, and they really take your mind off things. I can't always read the entire day.

Next post, I'm going to post a sound clip of me playing Kiss The Rain by Yiruma on the piano.
It's also knows as Bella's Lullaby.
And I learnt how to play the piano just so that I could play that song for you, you who are The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Good night & I hope everyone has a safe and fun weekend!

I'm lost without you

Perfect title, I tell you.

My head hurts. Oh, so badly. I had a dream last night that I would have a horrible horrible migraine and no one to help, not even The One Who Leaves ME Breathless, and it turned out to happen today.

My dreams, I tell you. They come true so often..
Like this teacher at school. I dreamt on a Thursday that he wouldn't come on a Friday. I told him about it and checked that he was feeling okay and everything. He ended up not coming and having fever on Friday morning.

Anyway.
Thank you so much to Areesha at Me, Myself, and I and Arfa Ezazi at Chatterings of a drunk butterfly.
They made me smile when I was trying to cope with the annoying depression that comes with a migraine.

That was basically the highlight of today.
Apart from missing The One Who Leaves Me Breathless so much.

You made my depression go away with just one simple text. You really are everything good in my life.

Oh, and I don't have my laptop's charger, I forgot it in school. I forget things when I have a migraine.. So I'm using my brother's laptop. And I can't fight this migraine much longer, so I'm going to go try to eat. I feel like puking. And I haven't slept more than an hour. I couldn't, my head hurt so much..

Oh girl,
You stand by me,
I'm forever yours.. faithfully.

Oh Girl, You stand by me..

I love Faithfully. I know I've heard it sometime before, but Boyce Avenue's cover is stuck in my head.

Sometimes, I just feel like driving. But my mom decided that she would drive today. Oh well.

So I poured water all over the staff room table today. I was pouring water into a glass-and I was standing near the door-and I looked up to see The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Don't laugh yet, okay?

It's rare for my mind to go blank. I can usually control my thoughts better. But it went blank this time, and I was just staring. I ended up pouring water away from the glass and not realizing it until it dripped onto the floor.

Yes, I had to hurry up and clean it up.

That's one of the three interesting things that happened today.

The second one was when I turned my laptop on in the staff room and played Sean Paul's She Doesn't Mind after plugging in my earphones.

Now everyone knows that there are two ports, one for the mike, and one for the earphones.

I usually double check that I plug them into the right place. This was, by the way, two minutes after the above incident.

I plugged them in, and I'm listening to the song happily, before I realized that the sound was coming from the laptop and not from the earphones. Yes, I had plugged them into the mike port. And that song isn't the best one to play in a staff room.

You can imagine what happened next.

The third interesting thing was what some children in my mom's class wrote.

The topic was 'donations.' They had just donated some stuff for The Flood Relief effort.

Here's the best one. "I donated my teacher."

The other topic was 'energy conservation' and how conserving means to save.

"I conserved Hasan today when he was falling."

Circus life

Under the big top world

We all need the clowns to make us smile.

I think that's pretty much all I have to say for today. Oh, wait! I made something for you. Just for you.

I was going to give it to you, but you were busy.. And I hate interrupting. So, here. Hope you like it :o

I hate the quality of my pictures. These are the best out of five images.

Through space and time

Always another show

Wondering where I am

Lost without you