Kaise mujhe tum mil gayi-How did I find you

When you feel like everything is falling apart, like it's you've been hurt too much, like it's the end, that's when you smile and let no one see how you really feel inside.


Kaise mujhe tum mil gayi
Kismat pe aaye na yakeen.


It's the first day of winter vacations.
And I have a cough and a cold. But no migraine, thankfully.

When I'm without The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, or haven't spoken to her much that day or something, even if I'm surrounded by people, I still feel alone. Like yesterday, when I was with my colleagues but was missing her. I may be texting three people but if she doesn't reply to my texts, I feel like it's too quiet.


I'm supposed to be happy since it's my birthday tomorrow and my friends and family expect me to celebrate all week. And because the winter vacations are here.
But I don't feel happy. And I'm trying to be happy and smile and appreciate by letting it out here.

I love you, The One Who Leaves Me Breathless. Now and forever. It's too quiet without you.


I hope everyone has a much better and happier vacation than the one I'm expecting.

I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there


I got two As and one B! It was my first time studying full time and working full time as well, so I am overwhelmingly happy. Like. Really. Happy.


Does the happy dance.
Wait. How do you do the happy dance? O.o


Anyway.


So I'm posting a few poems from two blogs today. They are both amazing writers.
Firstly, from Tazeen at Crimson Sky,

If words could kill

You'd be dead by now,

Six feet under -- Seven, just in case

I would dig your grave

With my own skilled hands,

And bury you deep --

Into the sodden ground...

How long has it been,

Since we last spoke?

Because if words could kill,

You'd be dead by now...

Buried six feet under the musky ground

Far from the famed --

Maddening crowd.

Secondly, from One Life Many Moments at One Life Many Moments,

Awkward Silences.

Unsaid words. 

Unvoiced expressions.

Suppressed feelings.

Unuttered sentiments. 

Unspoken desires.

Unstated promises.

Undying compassion.

Unceasing Concern.

Between the twilight stillness.

Silent Conversations.

Stolen Kisses.

Melting Moments.

Not spelled out- L.O.V.E.

I just loved those poems. You can see why.
Jocelyn at Almost A Star made a list of what she wants for Christmas.
Now I don't celebrate Christmas, since I'm a Muslim, but I do celebrate my birthday on Christmas Eve. And since I'm on a high after seeing my hard-earned grades, I am actually being positive about my nineteenth. So I'm actually smiling as I do this. See the smile in my words? No?


Then here. :)


What is your If-I-Could-Get-Anything-I-Wanted Christmas List?

1. Staying in Karachi and not having to go anywhere else without The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.
2. Eternity with The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, Aral, and Ayza.
3. The Mazda Shinari Concept. Yes, it's a car.
4. The Canon EOS Rebel T2i.
5. An Ipad.
6. A new cell phone. That I need, not just want. Preferably the Iphone 3GS.
7. Um.. does a cure for every disease count? This is turning into a wishlist now.

By the way, does anyone else watch Terra Nova? I simply love it.

So I am giving a few awards today. I wasn't going to describe the people or their blogs, but that would be wrong. Even though their blogs speak for themselves.

Firstly, to Tazeen at Crimson Sky and Rosette Princess at Once Upon A Time.
I always love reading their poetry and whatever else they have to say. It's always interesting. And as a poet myself, I know when I've found writers whose poetry people will love to read.

and

Secondly, to Jocelyn at Almost A Star, Areesha at Me, Myself and I and Hazel at Pablo's Angel.
There's always variety on these blogs. There's so much that I could describe, but instead I'll just say that I love these blogs and you should go over and read.

Thirdly, to Hamza Bin Laden at Teenage Mutiny, AcetylCholine at Critical Velocity, and Ateeq at Boredum Butcher.


Whenever I need a laugh, I go to these blogs. Even if the posts are really old and they haven't posted, their posts are still really funny. Funnier than mine, I'll admit.

Fourthly, to ♫♪♥PhilO♥♪♫ at Life Through My Eyes, The Butterfly Effect at The Butterfly Effect and Crystal at Pentagram.
These three people can write amazingly. When they publish their books, I'll be the first to buy them. Seriously. If you love reading, I would go onto these blogs, if I were you. I am out of words to describe their..awesomeness.

And to all my bloggers who read this, whether they comment or not (I crave comments.)

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
You are my wings to fly
You are the wind beneath them
I miss you every night, when I close my eyes.
I love you.

Oh Girl, You stand by me..

I love Faithfully. I know I've heard it sometime before, but Boyce Avenue's cover is stuck in my head.

Sometimes, I just feel like driving. But my mom decided that she would drive today. Oh well.

So I poured water all over the staff room table today. I was pouring water into a glass-and I was standing near the door-and I looked up to see The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

Don't laugh yet, okay?

It's rare for my mind to go blank. I can usually control my thoughts better. But it went blank this time, and I was just staring. I ended up pouring water away from the glass and not realizing it until it dripped onto the floor.

Yes, I had to hurry up and clean it up.

That's one of the three interesting things that happened today.

The second one was when I turned my laptop on in the staff room and played Sean Paul's She Doesn't Mind after plugging in my earphones.

Now everyone knows that there are two ports, one for the mike, and one for the earphones.

I usually double check that I plug them into the right place. This was, by the way, two minutes after the above incident.

I plugged them in, and I'm listening to the song happily, before I realized that the sound was coming from the laptop and not from the earphones. Yes, I had plugged them into the mike port. And that song isn't the best one to play in a staff room.

You can imagine what happened next.

The third interesting thing was what some children in my mom's class wrote.

The topic was 'donations.' They had just donated some stuff for The Flood Relief effort.

Here's the best one. "I donated my teacher."

The other topic was 'energy conservation' and how conserving means to save.

"I conserved Hasan today when he was falling."

Circus life

Under the big top world

We all need the clowns to make us smile.

I think that's pretty much all I have to say for today. Oh, wait! I made something for you. Just for you.

I was going to give it to you, but you were busy.. And I hate interrupting. So, here. Hope you like it :o

I hate the quality of my pictures. These are the best out of five images.

Through space and time

Always another show

Wondering where I am

Lost without you