If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile

Yes, the title is from Rascal Flatts' 'My wish.'

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless told me that I need to be more positive.
+ve energy.
So I've really been trying to be positive. All because she said I should. She was right, I have been getting really depressed and upset over the smallest things. So I've really, really, really been trying hard. Even though I was worried and upset and sad, I still fought it.. because you said I should. So I hope it makes you happy. And The Script's sad music is so addictive, but sigh. Okay.


I'm like this now: At least, I try to be.

108 posts, and 108 followers. I finally caught up!
On the other hand, I lost a follower. Well, whoever it is, I hope you have a nice time anyway.

When darkness is upon your door
And you feel that you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump, I'll break your fall.

So this was a really busy week. Like, really busy.

I learnt that I can't outrace an automatic Honda Accord with my shift stick Suzuki Mehran, no matter how fast I change gears and drive.

I learnt that I have to be much more careful with everything I do.

I almost fainted the other day. That has never, ever happened. I had a migraine and I was just exhausted. And I got up and I almost fell and everything was just so.. dizzy. And I went like what the fudge.

And everyone wanted to read my encrypted text, but some things and between The One Who Leaves Me Breathless and me.

But here's an encrypted text to make up for that. :)

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You'll find the password at the end of the post. :)

Enjoyyyy.

The password is.. the one who leaves me breathless

When somebody loves you

The title is from Alan Jackson's When somebody loves you, yes.

So I've had a really tiring day. But I just downloaded Terra Nova's first three episodes, and they are amazing.


When somebody loves you
There's nothing you can do
When somebody loves you
It's easy to get through.

And that's pretty much all that's going on right now.
Yeah, I know I'm not that random right now.


This is for The One Who Leaves Me Breathless. And no one else. :)

Show encrypted text

And this makes me smile every time I see it, so I'm posting it again.


Here's a shout out to two bloggers who said something to/about The One Who Leaves Me Breathless..and me.

First, Ezazi at Chatterings of a drunk butterfly.

Next, to Crystal at Pentagram.

It's gotta be you
Only you


I'll be here, by your side
No more fears, no more crying
But if you walk away
I know I'll fade
Cause there's nobody else.

Your smile lights up my world

If we don't kill ourselves, we'll be the leaders of a messed up generation
If we don't kid ourselves, would they believe us if we told them the reason why?
Do we take it too far, take it too far?
Did we chase the rabbit into wonderland?

A BIG thank you to Naked Reality at Naked Reality for telling me about this song.

I heard T-Pain's 5 O'clock in the morning this afternoon, and I was addicted to this song.

Yes, I made it. Looks a bit funny, the left one does. But I hope you like it ^.^


Cause I keep checking my cell phone
And these missed calls
You texting me like Imma kill ya'll.


I didn't post yesterday because there was just too much going on.
But I'm happy.. I think.


It's almost November! Which means birthdays. And Eragon/Inheritance Part Four.


My imagination sees you like a painting by Van Gogh.

I loved you from the start.
In every single way, and more each passing day.
You are brighter than the stars.
Believe me when I say.. It's not about your heart. It's all about your scars.


Here's a shout out to two bloggers who said something to/about The One Who Leaves Me Breathless..and me.


First, Ezazi at Chatterings of a drunk butterfly.

Next, to Crystal at Pentagram.

Oh, and before I forget.


Hope everyone has a wonderful week!


Right. So. I have homework which I better get started on.

I love you.
You really do leave me breathless, all the time.

When I look at you

I wanna know

Can you show me

I wanna know about these strangers like me

Tell me more, please show me

There's something familiar about these strangers like me.

Every gesture, every move that she makes, makes me feel like never before

Why do I have this growing need to be beside her?

I really don't feel like talking much. I have no idea why.

Maybe it's the fact that I have a cold.

Maybe it's the fact that I've been trying to be random and funny all day, and I think I've been failing at doing that.

You leave me breathless..

Right, so since I'm not saying much, I might as well as do this.

I found this in around four or five blogs. I don't remember them all right now. I'm supposed to 'strike off' what holds truth about me. Simple enough. And if you want to do it, go ahead. It's a great time for when you don't feel like talking much.

Appearance
I have/had piercings besides the ears.
I want piercings besides the ears.
I have many scars. It's not even funny. I seem to get them all the time.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color. Ugh. No.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I want a tattoo. Maybe a non-permanent one?I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces.
I have more than two piercings.

Embarrassment
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. Oh, that happens all the time.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.

Health
I’ve gotten stitches.
I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had chicken pox.
I've had malaria.
I've had typhoid.
I've had jaundice.
Travel
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to US.
I’ve been to Europe.
I've been to at least one other country.
I've never been out of my country.
I’ve driven/ridden over 200 kilometers in one day.

Experiences
I’ve gotten lost in my city. Really? That's like the last thing that could happen to me.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. And then ran out. XD
I’ve slapped someone.
I’ve kissed someone underwater.
I’ve chugged something.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a musical.
I’ve auditioned for something.
I’ve been on stage.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue. Tasted it, too. Never doing that again.
I’ve sat on a rooftop at night. I just love doing that. Especially when I'm sad.
I’ve pranked someone. Psh. All the time!
I’ve ridden in a taxi. I own a taxi. No, really.

Honesty / Crime
I’ve been threatened to be arrested. By my dad. He's a cop.
I’ve broken a law. Littering, driving through red lights.. Come on, please. Rules and laws were made to be broken.
I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. Yeah. Get depressed.
I’ve sneaked out.
I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
I’ve cheated while playing a game. I tried in UNO once. I got caught. XD
I’ve been in a fist fight.

Death
I’m afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I’ve seen someone/something die.
Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
I have attempted suicide.
I’ve thought about suicide before.
I’ve written a eulogy for myself. I had to look up eulogy.

Materialism
I own over 10 music CDs.
I own over 10 novels.
I own over 5 electronic gadgets.
I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
I collected comic books.
I own a lot of makeup.
I own gaming console(s).
I own a car.
I own a bike.
I thrive on compliments.
I thrive on hate.

Random
I can sing low key.
I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news occasionally or always.
I like to kill bugs.
I sing in the shower.
I’m a morning person.
I’m a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I care about grammar.
I love spam.
I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake well. Does cooking count? :o
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange. I don't have a favorite color.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can’t sleep if there’s a bug/insect in the room.
I’m really ticklish.
I like chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I’m good at remembering names.
I’m good at remembering dates.
My memory sucks.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

People
...used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
...called me fat. The Deaf kids at my summer camp told me I was. O.o
...say I’m skinny.
...have said I’m ugly.
...have said I’m pretty.
...have spread rumors about me.
...force me to eat.
...say I eat too much.
...say I eat too little.
...say I eat too fast.
...say I eat too slow.
...have called me a genius.
...have given me gifts.

Eating
I’ve lost weight.
I’ve gained weight.
I’m at my thinnest.
I’m at my biggest.
I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
My weight affects my mood. A lot.
I diet.
I’m vegan/vegetarian.
I exercise.
I’ve fainted from exhaustion. 

Family
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve planned to run away from home before.
I’ve run away from home.
My biological parents are together.
Bad times
I regularly drink.
I can’t swallow pills.
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point. Ah. Yes. Well.
I have/had anxiety problems. Had them. Not anymore. :)
I shut others out when I’m upset.
I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I’ve slept an entire day before.
I’ve plotted revenge.n Does planning to egg someone count?


Come with me, now, to see my world
Where there's beauty beyond your dreams.


So, um, yeah.

You know I'd do anything for you

Giant steps are what you take

Walking on the moon

I hope my leg don't break

Walking on the moon.

I didn't post yesterday, I know. I had a really bad migraine.

But I met up with two friends and we had a lot of fun. Fun like I haven't had since.. April. It was a good thing that none of my students saw me. They'd wonder how mature we were, messing around and throwing water and going into the dodgem cars area.

And later, in the evening, when I had just woken up and was in the kitchen getting water, the 'Manzoor hai' yell came again. I was really tempted to yell back, but I had a migraine then.

[Manzoor is a name. 'Manzoor hai' means 'Is Manzoor there?' and it also means 'Do you accept.' So you can see why it's so funny when this guy yells that at least once a week.]

So that was mostly what I did yesterday.

This morning, I woke up to the sound of people yelling outside the house. Now I just had a dream that people were fighting outside my house while we were getting ready to go somewhere, so I got up and found out that it was a donkey race in the alley outside the apartment complex.

Yes, laugh. :P

And this is the sound clip of me playing Kiss the rain/Bella's lullaby for the third and fourth times. The fourth time is worth the wait, trust me.

And this is me playing 'Happy Birthday' and then part of 'Jingle Bells'

Apart from all that, I got a B in American Government (Yay, I guess.). The One Who Leaves Me Breathless said that I should be thankful for a B. It was a hard class and a fast track one, but I wanted an A. You can't have everything, I guess. So I'm happy.

It's got to be the crunkest
It's got to be the loudest
It's got to be the best love song she ever heard in her life,


I made these to surprise The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

No need for me to write it,
I just gotta picture her smiling.


I found these pictures.. taken from when I was in a picture taking mood.

It's rare for me to want to take pictures, like a lot of pictures. It started when I was in sixth grade. My class went on a field trip to Lahore. My parents gave me a camera (we didn't have decent digital ones back then). So I spent most of my money on camera rolls.. and when we developed the pictures, out of eleven hundred pictures, five had people in them. The rest had scenery.. of the museums. The sights along the way. The Lahore Fort.
I take amazing pictures of scenery, yes. It made my dad mad enough to take out his digital camera and teach me how I should take pictures.

These are three out of eight of my first students. I taught them English as a Second Language. Bit old to be my students, but they learnt a lot. :)

These are two turtles at the Dallas Forth Worth aquarium.

If I could just see you
Everything would be alright
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light.