About Today. And 365 Day Project, Day.. 23

I've crossed 60,000 page views.
Makes me feel good.

I've made a bunch of mistakes along the way. I've moved across continents. I've gained weight, too. (Yes, that was supposed to make you laugh). I'm losing that weight, by the way.

But I was watching Warrior today. I've seen the brothers' fight before, but at that time I only cared about the song that was playing and trying to find out what song that was. It's 'About Today' by The National, if anyone wants to know.

I don't know what I'm going to do in life. Only God knows. It still takes time to forgive oneself for every mistake made along the way. And for me, a mistake is made when someone else is hurt or badly affected by something I did. And living with that is not easy, especially not when all you want to do is help other people. When you don't care about you, but you believe that you're here to make it better for someone else. Whoever else that person may be.

This is all just really random. Like the way I used to be. The way I liked to be.

I wanted to say one thing after watching Warrior. That guy may never hear it to read it, but I'm still going to say it. You damn well better take care of her. Cause now it's your responsibility and you better be around for her forever.

That said, here's today's picture. It's at sunset, yes. The very last rays of the sun on this side of the planet.
I love the picture since you can see the purple/pink part of the rays too.

Distracted

So tired. Head hurts. Been out driving. Traffic. Bright lights. Right in my eyes. People honking. Talking to mum. Sleepless nights.

Don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead
And don't be shy, just let your feeling roll on by


You know love is better than a song
Love is where all of us belong
So don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Cat Stevens-Don't Be Shy




I was invigilating today.
Lots of invigilations, more than any other teacher.
I was invigilating today.
The One Who Leaves Me Breathless/The One Who Gives Me Asthma/My Breath-Taker was in the first class I had to invigilate.
I was invigilating today.
And I was so distracted. I kept staring at The One Who Leaves Me and forgetting to keep an eye on the rest of the students.
I was invigilating today.
And I was totally distracted.
So distracted that I've been distracted all day today.




I put on my jeans and shirt and shoes the sameAnd I'll leave my house and show my face againI thought that I could find a way to hide the truthBut everybody knowsEverybody knows
I'm tryna smileI'm tryna lieI'm tryna live another life
Tryna be the me without youIt's like driving in a car with no wheelsFlying through the sky with no wingsA needle in the eye don't stingWhen you're underwater you can't breatheWhen I need to call you I can't reachTryna light a fire with no sparkNo match and no fuseTryna to be me without you
Oh it's hard to find somebody newWhen the only one I'm looking for is youI thought that I could find a way to hide the truthBut everybody knowsEverybody knowsI'm tryna smileI'm tryna lieI'm tryna live another lifeLoick Essien-Me Without You

When's the day you start againAnd when the hell does you'll get over it beginI'm looking hard in the mirrorBut I don't fit my skinIt's too much to takeIt's too hard to break meFrom the cell I'm in
Oh from this moment onI'm changing the way I feel yeahFrom this moment onIt's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to actDon't know what to sayStill wear the scars like it was yesterdayBut you're long gone and moved onCause you're long goneBut I still don't know where to start, still finding my wayStill talk about you like it was yesterdayBut you're long gone and moved onBut you're long gone, you moved onThe Script-Long Gone & Moved on

I'm in a musical mood, yes. Music is what I use to drown out everything. Music and prayers are my tools to relaxing and feeling better.The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, I love you.And I found out today that it is meant to be.

You're on my mind.. Like all the time.

No, wait. You're always on my mind.
Who am I referring to?
I'm talking about The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.


She's my most favorite person in this world. She's the one who motivates me all the time. She's the one I'll do anything for. Which is why I'm trying to be positive. She loves me too, yes, for those of my followers who missed out on that post. She's just really busy studying. Oh, and she's smarter than I was at her age, but don't let that go to your head, okay? :P

That is how you jumped on me and hugged me in my dream, by the way.


Oh girl, you stand.. by me.
I'm forever yours.. faithfully.


Right, so. I have a migraine again. I had one yesterday. That was a horrible, horrible, horrible one. This is better. I really really feel like puking, though. But I am still trying to be positive here.


If I stumble,
if I fall,
Forgive me,
I'm just learning as I go along.


I have a question. Why did humpty dumpty sit on the wall?


Randomness, I know.

Smile, an everlasting smile,
A smile can bring you near to me.
Don't ever let me find you gone,
Cause that would bring a tear to me.


If you ever have to walk on the road and not on the sidewalk, always in the middle. That way, any car will see you. And you have a much higher chance of being run down too :D


This world has lost it's glory
Let's start a brand new story.


It's supposed to rain this week. In Karachi. Amen to that, LOL.


Remember how I said that I would post more of my quotes and stuff? I have a bunch of quotes on the page up there somewhere. *Points up.*


These are different ones.


Sometimes you just have to run away
So you can see who will come after you.
Sometimes you just have to talk quieter
Just to see who's listening.
Sometimes you have to step up in a fight
Only to see who's standing by your side.
Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision
Only to see who's there to fix it.
You have to let you of the one you love
Just to see if they will ever come back.


Always forgive your enemies. Nothing annoys them so much.


Two wrongs don't make a right. But three lefts do.


To love at all is to be vulnerable-C.S. Lewis.


This wasn't a long post. I have a migraine, so please bear with me.
And no, no new surprises yet. But I'm working on three big projects. :D

Have an awesome week!!!

I just want to lay my head in your lap.. and sleep.

Ah, my migraines are getting annoying.

I drove all the way across the city today :D Yes, I have finally mastered the art of changing gears!

Looks proud.


But the traffic is just.. Bleh. People drive like they can't see my car! Yes, I have a small one, but it makes me wish for my Mercedes so I could either speed and just hit them-my Mercedes was an old one, so it rarely ever got damaged-or honk the loud horn at them.
I'm not polite to annoying drivers, no.

So my dad says that he might get me a white parrot.

I love animals, yes. I've kept a baby crow (it was injured in its eye), a green parrot, six or seven dogs, a white peacock, ducks, rabbits, fishes, and turtles.
A white parrot.. Those are much bigger. And so much more awesome-er!!!

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep.

There's only one person and one thing whom I want to blog about, and that's The One Who Leaves Me Breathless. She's the most awesome-est person in the world, and I love her soo soo soo much.

How can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you?


It's like so hard not to keep going on about her.

How can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you?


Cause you're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything.


I was bitten by a parrot once. Yes, I've had many strange accidents. From having burning oil fall on my face to playing soccer in slippers with my dog and kicking my foot into his open mouth by accident and getting bitten.. Oh, I've been through it all. I can have a poker face anytime I want to because my dog bit me. I can blabber on and on because a parrot bit me.

I had mountain dew and Pepsi today. Yeah, that was random. And I'm soo tired right now, but I feel like talking.

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line.


I have blog awards to give out!

I'll start off with someone to whom I owe an apology. Ateeg Mughal at Boredom Butcher. He has a really, really, really funny blog. Yeah, he goes on and on, but he's funnier than I am. I owe him an apology, because he skipped school just to blog, and I told him that I wouldn't comment until he attended school regularly. I know how much going to school and having to study sucks, but I couldn't let him throw his future away just for a blog.

Next, to Ezazi at Chattering of a drunk butterfly. Her blog is one of the three ones whom I'll accept are funnier than mine. Yes, she nearly gave me a heart attack with her latest post, titled 'The doctor says I have cancer,' but it turned out her 'doctor' was her teenage brother. I forgave her in a few minutes-which is long for me, I usually take a few seconds to forgive anyone. She missed the recent blogger meet-up like I did, so the two of us created Team Awesome-er.

Third, to Mahnoor at Hopelessly cluttered soul. I've seen her go from four followers to forty in just a few months. So, here's congratulations, and a reminder that I love reading your posts :D She's one of the people in my Team Awesome-er.

Fourth, to Areesha Bilal at My, Myself, and I. I was like her second follower. And she writes better than I do. For those of you who've read my writings, you know that is a huge compliment. She's one of the people in Team Awesome-er. Ateeq & Hamza (at Teenage Mutiny) & Furree (at Furree Katt) have their own Team Awesome. We have Team Awesome-er, and she's in it. :D

I'm going to gift the next awards to Aman at As I go along life's way, Nostalgic at My Incomplete Chronicles, AZ at Its My Life, The butterfly Effect at The Butterfly Effect, Jocelyn at Almost a Star, Cricketfreak at BhadrAwr, and Hazel at Pablo's Angel. I just can't find enough words to describe their blogs, but I'll try. Aman's blog makes me think. It's usually filled with love and something interesting.
Nostalgic's blog reminds me of so much.. happiness at times, and sadness often.
AZ's blog is usually about her life, which I can relate to really easily, and therefore gives me nostalgia.
The butterfly effect is one of those awesome people who need to smile more.
Jocelyn had me as her first follower. Her blog is still just as amazing.
Cricketfreak's blog either makes me laugh or smile with someone that I can relate to easily.
Hazel's blog is a lot like Cricketfreak's, but she does a lot of creative stuff that makes it even more interesting. Like she recorded herself talking once and put it up on her blog.

Last, but certainly not least, to The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.
I was going to surprise you with this card, but you asked me to try and not do too much for you.
So here are two things :D

Oh, oh, and oh, Cheeku is back!!!!!
Which means randomness in the next post, indeed. He disappears when my migraines get worse.
And then he comes back when I really need him.

Oh, and I expect long-and many-comments now that I'm posting more than just lyrics and pictures and I-love-you's :D

For You

Rules: Grab your iPod/MP3 Player and scroll down the list of songs in alphabetical order and choose your favourite song from each alphabet (For example: With you by Chris Brown in W)


Areesha Bilal tagged me to do this here. So..

But I have one thousand and fourteen songs, so I'll just put down a few of my favorites.

A-Alors on Dance by Stromae

B-Breathless by Shayne Ward and Best Love Song by T-Pain

C-Candy by Aggro Santos

D-Do Dil by Noori

E-Everything by Lifehouse

F-Fantasy by Danny Fernandes

G-Go by Boys Like Girls

H-Hum se hai ye zamana by Call & Hero by Enrique Iglesias

I-I'm yours by The Script & I.Y.A. by Chris Brown

J-Jab Se Dekha Tujh Ko by Ali Zafar

K-Kryptonite by Three Doors Down

L-Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park

M-Mere log by Noori & Maula Mere by Train & My Wish by Rascal Flatts

N-Not my time by Three Doors Down & Next to you by Chris Brown

O-One love by Alaa Abdul Aziz, One I love by Coldplay, One in a million by Ne Yo, and Only Girl by Boyce Avenue

P-Put it on my tab by New Kids on the Block

Q-Qotte Ghusian by Imran Khan

R-Roya Re by Awarapan & Right here waiting for you (Classics)

S-Sarkiye by Coke Studio, Superman by Boyce Avenue, and Stereo Love by Edward Maya. I actually listened to Stereo Love the entire time whenever I was at London Heathrow and Bahrain..

T-This girl by Laza Morgan and Tell Me by Bobby Valentino

U-Unstoppable by Rascal Flatts

V-Viva La Vida by Coldplay

W-When you're gone (There are two versions to this, one by Bryan Adams and one by Avril Lavigne)

X-XXI's Taare and Dil Ki Batein

Y-You know better than I by David Campbell

Z-Zara Sa Dil me by Atif Aslam.

Have a thousand songs that you listen to randomly makes it easier to remember which songs are which. And the lyrics. Oh My God, I just realized that I know all the lyrics.

Oh Em Gee, indeed.


Now the tags! I'm tagging Areesha, as a thank you, and now these people just have to do it.

Ateeq, I know I rarely comment on your posts, but that's because you skipped school just to blog. :P

Naked Reality, you need more posts, so do this when you have time. =)

KN, I always feel like typing K&N when I write KN, apna naam likh do =D

Mahnoor, You need new music. Happy music to endure your stay in Karachi.

Moonie! You need to write something happy now =D

And anyone else who feels like doing this, go ahead. Just make sure you tag me. =D


And since my posts are not my posts without the funny pictures, here you go.

Mind you, I have to look all over the internet for these.

I wish I could take away all, all, and every single drop of your pain. I can take it.