The Way You Move

In December drinking horchata


I am addicted to three songs right now.


Switchfoot-You
Vampire Weekend-Horchata
Romeo Santos Ft. Usher-Promise


This is such a busy-and fun-week. Birthday preparations. Planning surprises. Getting presents. Community service co-ordination. Prefect co-ordination. Writing articles and a guest post. Trying harder than ever to be positive and not let any of my hurt/upset/depression/pain out. Finishing the Great Wall of China model that I made with Kirigami for my mom. It looks amazing now, by the way! Catching up on homework. Trying to be nicer and politer to everyone. Handling bullying issues now too. Ooh, that reminds me, I have to talk to the coordinator who handles those. But she's swamped with work.


And then I've been forgetting stuff. Birthdays. Reminders. Important announcements. Aah.


My life is just too epic. I bumped into the wall this morning-like really hard-because I was thinking about The One Who Leaves Me Breathless. Epicness, I know. I hope no one saw me. Embarrassing. 


Lost the balance for your love,
I fell into your hands, you have control over me
Your body is the jail and I am a prisoner
And never want to leave, convicted, and I'm happy.


Try to keep my balance but I still fall
I do not know how I fall so hard
Into your arms right
Right beside you baby and its so hard
Love love love yeah
Leaves me trapped inside my own bars.


I'll give you my heart girl, But you got to promise


Promise you'll hold me, touch me,
Love me.. way past forever.


I've been having fun. Or at least, trying to. On Saturday, I went to the Children Cancer Hospital. And I was expecting it to be really depressing and sad. Instead, it reminded me to be thankful. There were children there who were simply amazing. One did not play any sports and loved studying and wanted to go back home to study. No, not to play, but to study. Another loved Monopoly. And then there was this little three year old whom I just adore. I knew he was three as soon as I saw him. He's amazing.. and yes, he reminds me of two other little babies. But I'm trying to be positive here. His name is Abdul Hadi. And he loves yellow. And lions. And posing for pictures. And stars.
That is him putting a star on my cheek. He did that to the other two volunteers too.

He wanted a fish. So I made him one.

As of this morning, I have had 160 dreams of The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.
160/10=16. And she's turning 16, mashaAllah :D

I realized this weekend how selfish I was. I'm trying even harder to be selfless now. Like I once was.


And I read Inheritance. It was an amazing end to an epic fiction series.
How I got Inheritance, now that is a long story. It was supposed to be released on the 8th of November. So I went to the bookstore on the 7th, at around 9pm, hoping they'd release it early or something. They told me that they'd have it in stock by the 10th and we'd get a copy for sure.
So on the 10th, I went.. and I was told to come back on the 13th. I went back on the 12th, since I had heard that it had arrived. And I was told that it would be in stock for people who had not booked it-like I had not-in the last week of November. No. Fudging. Way. So I went to a bookstore where I had been buying books for like years. And so the manager knew me. So he called the other outlets and found a place where they had extra copies and I went to get it. They promised me, after all. So yeah. That was my Saturday.

I found this today! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't posted about the sad stuff that's been going on. It's called '+ve energy.' Right, meri jaan?


This is an example of the totally retarded emails I get. On Facebook, no less.

And then I saw this a while ago, and I burst out laughing. No idea why. I'm random like that :)

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in you.