It's not about your scars, it's all about your heart, part two

Soo I'm sad again, yes.
And my thumb hurts like oh my God.

If you were an ice cream flavor,
You would be my favorite one.

Why am I sad?
Two reasons.

One, I saw a horrible accident today. And it reminded me of how much more I should pray..
for her health and safety. Yes, I'm talking about the One Who Leaves Me Breathless.
I pray for her, yes, but I'd rather not even try to imagine life without her.

Two, I'm leaving for Uni in less than a year. So every single second in Karachi and with her is valuable. And when I don't get those five or ten minutes with her every day, then that just.. sucks.
It's like so hard to smile after that.

Sometimes, you're all alone.
Sometimes, every breath hurts.
Sometimes, no one can help you.
Sometimes, not even those who love you most can do anything.

Sometimes, you're alone.
Sometimes, you face it all.
Sometimes, you face it, and smile.
Sometimes, you face it, and smile, and work all the more harder.

Sometimes, you're all alone.
Sometimes, you pray a little bit more.
Sometimes, you just can't let it all out.
Sometimes, you just.. hurt.


And I just added this.


Sometimes, you can't take it all together.
Sometimes, you just need to let it out.
Sometimes, you just want to end it all.
Sometimes, you just really.. hurt.

I really, really, really love you.


You are brighter than the stars
Believe me when I say
It's not about your scars,
It's all about your heart.


Ah yes. I burnt my thumb.
See that I love you carved on wood? I burnt it onto the wood, using this pen which heats up to 600 degrees Fahrenheit. It sort of went into my thumb when I pressed the wood too hard. There's like this hole in my thumb now ._.


Here's what it looks like.

It's my mom's birthday today.


Which means that, Masha Allah, she's been married more than half her life, and she's also been with me half her life. Which is all of my life. Yes, she's twice my age now. Which reminds me. My mom was my age when she got married and then had me :o

The One Who Leaves Me Breathless is amazing. I know you'll read this, and I want you to know.. I trust you. You're smart enough, you'll figure out what to choose and what you want.

And here are the funny pictures for those who crave them most :D

I turn the music up, I got my records on

So I was going through my portable hard drive, looking for those awesome bumper stickers I had..

And I found tons of pictures, videos, and documents from my old-and beyond ancient-computer.

The one I bought in Malaysia in 2000.. And it was raining that day..

Ah memories.

I remember..

Going to Meerut (an awesome restaurant) with my parents..

Riding my beloved bike everywhere..

My teacher teaching me the ABC in montessori-and twisting my ear whenever I said b instead of d..

Being the tallest and therefore the first in line on Career Day, where I wore a police uniform.. with the toy gun..

Watching robbers hold our entire family at my great-grandmother's at gunpoint and then run when they saw my dad's police ID in his wallet.. With a few complications in that story, but yeah..

Going to St. Michael's, where I had my first fist fight.. And lost..

Oh, I can take all day, and half of my heart says that you're bored and the other half reminds me that I've had a really interesting life..

Right now, I'm switching between songs and singing along, so I'll save you the torture of listening to me sing..

I found all these pictures..

These are pictures of me.. In order of oldest to most recent..

Now for the random pictures I found:

Yes, I learnt how to play the piano in Dallas, yes, that's the Austin skyline-took that picture when I went there for a Student Government State Convention, and yes, the last picture is of one of my fifty bookshelves.

I just realized today that even though I'm in Pakistan, I'm still a member of the Student Government back at college, and still the Secretary since I haven't resigned and elections are in September :o

Now, last but not least, I'm giving three awards today.

Firstly, to AcetylCholine at http://gravitycrystals.blogspot.com/

Second, to Love at http://serenedove.blogspot.com/

And finally, to Furree Katt at http://furreekatt.blogspot.com/