Breathlessness

This is a post about love and life, pain and death.


I'm falling even more in love with you 
Letting go of all I've held onto 
I'm standing here until you make me move 
I'm hanging by a moment here with you 
I'm living for the only thing I know 
I'm running and not quite sure where to go 
And I don't know what I'm diving into 
Just hanging by a moment here with you 


The One Who Leaves Me Breathless, this picture is for you.

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Love requires a different kind of courage. People fear surrender. They are proud and resistant. They will fight to the death for what they believe in. They will struggle to conquer. Love is not about conquest. The truth is a man can only find true love when he surrenders to it. When he opens his heart to the partner of his soul and says that it is your to nurture or destroy.

True, much?

Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for
Don't give it away
Save your heart
For someone who leaves you breathless
And I know that you're scared
Seems like someone said you had it in you
All along you said you knew this was wrong
But still worth dying for


The thing about loving someone is that it feels like I've been living in the darkness of night all my life and it's like the sun has risen when I see The One Who Leaves Me Breathless. Like an invisible fist has punched my chest and knocked the breath out of me. Like my tongue is joined to the roof my mouth and I can't say anything, I'm totally speechless. It's like a fire inside you that no one can put out. A fire that gives you hope. A fire that gives you a reason to pick yourself up, admit your mistakes, accept things better, and move on with life.

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight.

A falling star

Least I fall alone.

The walls start breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

But no matter what happens, you can get hurt if you love someone. Even if they hurt you totally unintentionally. And that raises the question, is it worth falling in love if you keep getting hurt again and again?

It only hurts when your eyes are open

Lies get tossed and truth is spoken

It only hurts when that door gets open

Dreams are lost and hearts are broken

On the other hand, you need to open your heart if you are alone.

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This strange creeping darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time.

I've had one main fear these past month. That because of how I felt, because of how strongly I felt, I would ruin everything.