365 Day Project, Day 26

My old camera. Not that old, it's just like a year old. But it got dropped in water by someone and I took it apart to try to find out what was wrong with it once it had dried. It lost a part when it got dropped in water, so now I have a new camera. Exact same model, but yeah.

Thoughts before I sleep & 365 Day Project, Day 25

People have told me that I have really high expectations and standards for myself. By that they mean that I feel like I should get an A on everything. And that's really how I am. When I cook, I am happy only if I cooked it right. Even if the fish is a little soft or anything like that, I don't like it. When I write, it has to be something that people like.

Yes, I know I'm not perfect. Yes, I make mistakes. But with me, making a mistake while interacting with someone else is worse than anything else that I can do. Whether it was an honest mistake or intentionally annoying a friend-Greg knows what I mean by annoying-I feel.. Bad.. No, terrible.. Not even terrible, just horribly bad about it. And I go over what I said or did before I sleep and I don't forgive myself. It's not like I go like oh hey you're an idiot or something, no. It's more like, you should do better. You are better. And my own disappointment is worse than anything else. It's the only time I feel sad now. And going to sleep feeling sad is not a good feeling.

I used to have so many commentators on my blog. I feel like they're not there anymore because I'm not as good as I should be.

Maybe that's why I want to help people so badly. Like giving back to the general equation is atonement. that's actually a thought I haven't had before..

I took a lot of pictures today. This one had the most vibrant colors, though.

Ya Qalbi

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye



Do you believe in love at first sight?
I do.
It happened to me, so that's how I believe.
I still remember meeting The One Who Leaves Me Breathless in August, 2008.
I was so speechless that all that came out was a 'Hi.'
Even though I was newly-crowned Head Boy at that time.
Love that memory.


I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye


AND I was runner-up to Tay Tay on Juliet's photography competition. Can't believe she beat me-I took a picture of my baby cousin since I don't have one of Aral & Ayza yet soo I sent that in.
It feels good.


Here's the competition page: A Purple Sky

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before

The title, by the way, is Arabic for 'my heart.'

Since I couldn't find an Arabic word that relates to what's on my mind most.

And what's on my mind most is The One Who Leaves Me Breathless.

And she has my heart.

Whichever way she keeps it, whether she breaks it, or whatever, that's up to her.

So my title makes sense to you, right?

*Gives intimidating look*

Yes. Good. Glad we're on good terms.