Losing it again.

I lost my faith in society, in people, in friends today. I still have faith, but now it's only and only in God, because He's the only One who is always here.
It took me three years to believe again, to believe that people were decent, that they wouldn't use you and leave you, that they wouldn't take advantage of you and your love, that they wouldn't take advantage of you and stuff you love to do.
This poem/song is the result of not just one person, but of many. So no one, absolutely no one, can blame themselves for how depressing it is.


It's not my fault,
that i get depressed,
but fine, blame me for it,
blame me, not my migraines
or the medicines i take for them,
just keep blaming me.


Break my heart,
just keep breaking it,
because after all,
even though i gave it to you,
you don't care about it,
so why shouldn't you break it again?


There's times.
when i can't wait to leave,
because i've realized,
you don't want me,
you just want to use me,
and i don't blame you.


There's times,
when i feel like i'm broken,
but you don't care,
you never did,
you lied to me,
You just don't care.


I'm not going to give up,
i can take this and worse,
i can stand and smile,
even if you're killing me
with every second,
you just don't see.


It's not the end,
the world ain't ending yet,
but this suffering of mine
will continue
for eternity
until you see.


Break  me,
Use me,
Kill me please?