Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am
Amazing how one day without Pepsi makes everything seem so.. depressing.
I'm not addicted to Pepsi, but I need it, considering how exhausted I get after school and then later at home too..
I'm not going to post all the crap that I think about when I feel depressed.
Or maybe I will.
Anyway.
I feel depressed and worried like I haven't felt in ages.
My university decided about my deferment.. but they decided not to tell me. Yet. Makes me wonder why.
My financial aid hasn't come through yet.. Some dumb problems at the financial aid office; they're upgrading their system or something, and I have five days of praying and trying-to-not-worry before I find out whether I'll be getting any financial aid at all.
I'm worried about everything and anything. I haven't felt worried in so long that I'm worried about my feeling worried. Does that make sense? :o
Half the people at school act like I'm a temp who'll be gone in a week or so.. and the other half are actually helping me out.. Thank God for this half..
The news every day is really depressing.. And I'm trying to figure out whether a university degree is worth the hassle. After all, the economies are falling, and new graduates are either unemployed or getting really lousy jobs. I'd rather stay here.. Naturally, my parents want me to get a degree. I really don't know.
And to top it off.. I'm back to wondering how many people I can trust.. Such few people talk to me nowadays; it's so quiet.. Some of them back bite about others in front of me.. So why wouldn't they do the same about me?
And finally some good news.. I was right about Rebecca Black. She can sing. She just needed a new songwriter.
Don't miss out on your chance
Your life is in your hands
So take it just as far as you can
But trusting in youself, forget everyone else
Ok firstly, I love that song. (Not the Rebecca Black one, but 'the man who can't be moved' :D
ReplyDeleteIt's natural for you to worry. Just try to do what's best and good luck for the financial aid and university!
All will go well inshaAllah!
Those pictures at the end really cheered me up after a shitty day, so thanks :D
Yep, you have a pretty funny life there :D
ReplyDeleteLike these pictures, that makes me smile.
I love The Script and that song :) I think it's natural that we worry I for one worry TOO much lolol. I hope everything works out for you though :)
ReplyDeleteand LOOOL I feel so bad for Rebecca black. People are hating on her to hate even that song JUST STINKS. lol but haters are making her famous :P
HAHAAHH. And 'stupid *insert something which you probably replace by asterisks* never DID' :D
ReplyDeleteAND YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT PEPSI. Though i don't know how am i surviving for past couple of WEEKS without it.
And there you are. I though Rebecca had a voice too, just like Miley and Justin, which people call loser. They just need some new lyricists. :P
Get over things the tensions, and think about.. well Google suicide notes. You'll find some amazing pieces to read to get your mind off whatever is bothering you. :P
worries worries and worries, that is pretty much around in the air these days, so no problem with that, just be positive and the ways would be carved themselves.
ReplyDeletei love the topic, not love but i smiled after reading it.
and the pictures were awesome, the justin bieber's one, my favorite.
and Rebecca black, i just love her songs, friday is on top in my playlist followed by 'this is my moment'.
glad at least another guy likes her.
WOW, it's a long comment.
have a great weekend ahead
I am COKE person.
ReplyDeleteOh, jobs are tough. You should hear about mine =(
Best of luck anyways.
The LADIES first one was EPIC =D
i m not in love with her voice but yea rebecca is a good singer.
ReplyDeleteloved the "YU" pic:)
all of this sounded like stammering, umm, not really, more like jumbled up thoughts. which is better than having vague ones.
ReplyDeleteand believe me, their ain't nothing in getting worried. you'll either get the aid, or u won't. either way it isn't up to u. and even if u don't, so what? you believe in God, i presume? than BELIEVE in him. he'll pull u through, because there's always a way out even when you think its a close.
I know about worrying and anxiety. Just don't let it consume you. Take it as a challenge, a test to your will, and be confident in your capacity to overcome ordeals. Also, I think having a degree won't do you any harm, just major in something you want to know more about and genuinely have interest in.
ReplyDeleteI like Script, but Rebecca Black not so much.
Purplemist; My pleasure =D
ReplyDeleteThe girl of the sun; It is really.. eventful.
Normal.is.overrated; Haters made her famous. Know she's rich. I should try it. :o
KN; Thank you. Finally two people who agree with me on Rebecca Black. There are such sad.. and such funny suicide notes. :o
Ateeq Mughal; Thank you. Finally someone agrees with me.
Hamza Bin Laden; Coke? Seriously?
Kiran; it's from a really funny movies. I've forgotten the name somehow =/
The butterfly effect; this is how I write all my thoughts down :)
Yeah, He will.. Insha Allah.
Zeinab; I'll work on it =)
You all are so awesome. You made my day!
its good to know that you can. its usually hard penning down the buzz in my head. actually, its hard making sense of it, on the first place:p
ReplyDeleteYou get depressed when you don't get Pepsi?
ReplyDelete*laughs* That's something. =D
Being depressed has got to be the crappiest feeling ever. Sigh. Ah well, life goes on.
And it's terrible to not have people around who you can trust.